As told by me...

bounces around

2006-10-31T23:00:00.000-08:00

hellos everyb0dy!I've got a new blog url now...
www.rhapsody-in-writing.blogspot.com
I initially created it becoz I thought that there was a problem in my old blog...which turned out to be juz a glitch in the blogger system.So ah wells...might as well.I'm pretty attached to my current(or rather,old) blog...But haha its time I break away from it coz its not good to be too attached to such things...^_^Plus,rhapsody-in-writing is much easier to type in that individualistically-different...Say that 10 time fast.Heeeheehee..

fugly.

2006-10-26T17:47:00.000-07:00

It's a world of leggings
A world of Crocs
It's a world of Bai Ling
And pants with frocks.
There's so much to abhor
Every day, there is more
It's a fug world after all.

OMG,look at those outfits.These outfits are not even fit for the upcoming halloween season.
wahaha,love reading this website..http://gofugyourself.typepad.com/. This critic scrutinizing the poor celebrities' dressing.Its seriously funny...perhaps alittle mean but oh geez,some of them really dress terribly.They wear clothes that do not flatter their skin tone and does nothing to their figure >.< eeps!its...horrifying!<>
I hate Crocs.No wait,I can't say that..becoz I have no reason to hate it.I juz don't understand WHY would people even want to wear them.Sure,they're comfortable..but they're also one of the most hideous shoes.Wad's alittle bit of comfort when you walk around looking like you raided Ronald Macdonald's shoe closet?There are plenty of other comfy shoes that don't look clownish.And the brightly coloured rubber!*shudders*Crocs are not cheap either...I must admit they look cute on little kids..But on adults,its juz...*twitchtwitch* ugly.

MIEOW!

2006-10-22T23:00:00.000-07:00

Gak,I'm worried and afraid.Haiz.But there's nothing I can do at the moment except to wait and hope for the best.Sooo,its best to forget about it till the time comes.Here's a video clip on a cute little round faced cat!Haha,I was practically squealing when I saw this video..

I'm tired..Argh.

2006-10-18T22:02:00.000-07:00

I'm tired of...
being sick and tired.
how nobody ever seems to stay.
how the past never seems to leave me.
being paranoid.
being left out.
feeling fat and ugly.
being not good enough.
how nobody seems to care.
how nobody even knows.

Disgusting stuff.BLEH!!!

2006-10-15T21:55:00.000-07:00

Today...is the last day of the holidays!sniffsniff,my beautiful 7 weeks of holidays is over!Sad,it was starting to grow on me.And I'm not looking forward to this coming semester's set of modules.
Inorganic Chem:BLEH!I'm gonna do very badly for this module...I remember in secondary 3,calculating of moles and wadevers were terrible.And unless I've suddenly sprouted extra brain cells devoted to chemistry problem solving(which I seriously doubt so),I am still going to fail miserably in this module(which I am not looking forward to).I think its even worse than organic chem..
Maths and Stats:Oh joy!And here I thought I didn't have to deal with maths ever again in poly.I've heard that this module includes A maths syllabus...which I DIDN'T take in secondary school either.Fabulous.Looking on the bright side,yay..I'll be learning something new!And erm oh...not gonna do well in it too.Bummer,was never any good in maths.
Microbio:Oooh,exciting!I love bio..but microbio would consist of alot of complicated words.And dawn's spelling isn't too good.In fact,she still strongly suspects that she's slightly dyslexic..juz that the doctors didn't detect it.But Mark(Ah Cheong) said that it was easy...so I'm taking his word for it.I love bio,and that's one of the modules that I AM looking forward to.
Physiology:I'm looking forward to it too...hopefully it wouldn't turn out to be a nightmare.Ah Cheong said that its alot of memory work..which is,not good>.<
Sports and Wellness:Oooh!!I hope I can get a dance sport or something.No tennis or badminton..can't play those for NUTS.Wouldn't mind swimming either.If they offer it.
CATS:Dunno wad it stands for...but its some very CME like module.Heehee,interesting.

I intended to spend my last day of the holidays well...so Diana accompanied me to Cineleisure and I bought my much looked for Mr X!He's a little figurine that can be hooked onto your handphone..and whenever you send or receive an sms,or call...his little dick will light up!Lols,its alittle obscene...but this little handphone charm is super cute!Those who know me will also know that I have a certain fascination with things that light up,or slowing changes colour...oh well.I found a sliver Mr X,which matches my phone..yay.^_^
I tried the Japanese Wasabi ice cream at the round floor of Cineleisure...it was interesting.And...erm,gross.I like my wasabi on my sushi and sashimi,but the weird mix of creaminess of ice cream and the sharpness of wasabi was juz...mismatched.When you first taste the icecream,its creamy and slightly sweet...but the aftertaste is...strongly wasabi.After awhile it was causing me more pain than pleasure...so after 3/4s of the icecream,I dished out the remaining wasabi icecream and disposed of it...and ate the waffle cone.Lols,diana said I got conned by the icecream guy.I remember being apprehensive on trying wasabi icecream..
Me:Which one is nicer,the azuki bean or wasabi?
The guy:the wasabi is interesting..its something different ba..
Me:Ok,izit nice?Is the wasabi taste strong?
The guy:Hmm,its 50% wasabi inside the icecream...but its not very strong lah...
Me:Have you tried it?Do you like it?As in,REALLY..(hey,I've worked before..there are pple who juz say it to make the sales.)
The guy:*confidently*Yeah,its nice!
Me:hmm..ok.I'll have one then.
Wahaha,it was an interesting but painful experience!Never will I eat it again.Although I tried not to show it,at times my face must have shown wad I thought becoz Diana was sniggering at me...-.-lols.So a word of caution.Unless you're absolutly LOVE wasabi,do NOT try wasabi ice cream.Seriously.Becoz I'm a person who loves strong tasting food myself(gimme onions,curry,garlic,ginger,spices and cheese!!)...but the wasabi ice cream was really,PAINFUL!!!!*cringes*
At Taka,there was a fashion show put up in celebration of Takashimaya's 13th anniversary..I think.So diana and I stopped to watch for awhile.But the clothes weren't that nice,and mostly of very plain design.Colours were very simple..so after awhile we got bored and went to Macs and talked.Shared a large ice lemon tea between us..and surprisingly we managed to finish it!

kboxing

2006-10-13T23:11:00.000-07:00

On tuesday Esther,Vivian,Adele and I went Kboxing!Lols,I've never been kboxing until I entered poly..and my fellow kantang Vivian(being in ACJC) was so excited coz it was her first time going kboxing!Haha,I don't mind kboxing...but normally i go there to stuff myself with the titbits and listen to pple croon in chinese.The english song collection in kbox is limited,and most of them don't have the music videos to the songs...so isn't so fun.But yeah,every since I entered poly,I've been exposed to more chinese songs than ever.Now,I know who's Lin Jun Jie and Wilber Pan Wei Po(or I guess that's his name) and some F.I.R girl(or isit a band?)...ooh,and S.H.E!Lols...Esther was so enthu about going kboxing,so Viv decided to call along pple to go kboxing with her. Heehee,Vivian looks alittle sunburned in that pic...
But don't get me wrong..the only chinese song I know how to sing is..."lao su ai da mi"(direct translation:mouse loves the big grain of rice).Its so cute!
the 5 things dawn loves about kbox.
1.the kbox titbits.DEFINATELY.heehee.
2.the kbox ice lemon tee(mymy,I'm very greedy am I?)
3.singing Skater Boy.
4.taking pictures!
5.did I mention,the titbits?haha.
Here's some of the pics we took during Viv's Pizza Hut dinner(it was her bday!)..
Bottom to top,left to right:Liwen,Jessi,Vivian,Esther,Deborah and I.
So good to see those pple again...Beatrice came later on.Deborah looks pretty without her glasses!! Beatrice at the very top...

Ninjado chalet

2006-10-11T15:30:00.000-07:00

William JinQuan,Beesim and I on the ferry ride to PULAU UBIN.
the ninjado chalet was so fun...^_^We went cycling,which was enjoyable!Haha,sadly..I wasn't too used to riding on a bicycle(also coz embarassingly,I had trouble reaching the pedals) so I skidded and fell!Got really bad scrapes on the elbow and palms.Had trouble sleeping at night(haha) coz couldn't find a comfortable posistion to rest without putting pressure on it.The one on my right palm was disgusting>.<..first night it was wet and pus filled.BLeh. We climbed up to the highest peak of Ubin..the view was so breathtaking!!Even the photos couldn't capture the wonderful view to such an extent.We were lucky coz at that time it was SUPER windy!I loved the wind!!It was so strong that it blew me back afew steps once...such nice wind,I didn't wanna come down!

The view down the cliff.So nice and peacful..heeheee,can imagine if someone FALLS?JinQuan said that the body wouldn't even hit the water...juz clash into the rocks below=(.
Candid shot!Most of us were caught unawared.
Yay,nice!Isn't the view behind really nice?

From left to right,top to bottom:William,Derrick,Mark Cheong,JinQuan,Joyce,Beesim and me!
Interesting flora and fauna in Pulau Ubin.
When we got back to the chalet..the birthday boys got bullied by us!That's jinQuan and Ah Cheong bundling Derrick up in a blanket.
Wahahaha,all of us squishing Derrick!!See the reddish brown hair and purple nails at the bottom..yeps,that's ME!

Derrick likes getting squished..

Next was William's turn!He's so kuai..Not like Derrick who struggled SO much.He juz docilely let us manhandle him=D.Took out Bee's eyeliner and started DRAWING!!
JinQuan is evil
Wahahha!(yes,that's my nivea lipgloss he's wearing...)
Derrick struggling away..we're terrible makeup artists...heehee..
And if you think their little surprises for the day was over...oh no,no,no,nooo...
JinQuan bought eggs and flour from Ubin village.Hahaha,William looks like a snowman!!
Derrick's hair is nicely styled with eggy goodness...lols,see the white splotch on his nose?So cute rite?Take a closer look!Teeheehee..

Ah wells,all in good fun...As we headed back to the chalet and washed up,they didn't know that we still had one more surprise...Earlier in the week,JinQuan told me to go get a cake for them!
Happy birthday Derrick and William!Got the cake with Mark Lim...

JinQuan cooking away and Joyce in the background

Derrick,Beesim and I.Dunno why derrick dozed off so early during the chalet...
Ah Cheong -_-"
I think it was Ah Cheong that said ths picture looked alittle wrong...lols.*mumbles something that sounds like,"who ask him never wear his shirt?"*
JinQuan!
Thanks for cooking all the food for us and planning this whole thing,JinQuan!All of us had a great time!Although I was terrified of the dark I enjoyed walking through Ubin at night..The air was nice and cool and I saw fireflies!^_^ Didn't see much animals though...was hoping to see some more wild boars(only spotted one racing across the road while we were cycling),ah well..maybe next time!

Ah-CHOO!!!

2006-10-09T00:08:00.000-07:00

I can't believe that in the span of our 8 year friendship I do not have a single photo of Kenneth and I saved on my com-.-.Nvm then.Must remember to take more photos with him..
Yesterday my nose was running terribly.Eyes were watery and my nose was sore from running...I suppose it was due to the lack of sleep and aircon.Or maybe the mattress I slept on was dusty..I dunno.Haha,everybody said I looked terrible.Worship and the sermon was punctuated with my loud "Ah-Choo!!s" and trumpet-like blowing of nose>.<...haha,for those who know me would recognise my signature like sneezes and blowing of nose.I could tell I looked pretty bad as Kenneth(my friendly tissue supplier) sympathetically handed me a pack of tissues and said that I could keep it.I slept for 3/4s of the sermon...really felt like crap.Daniel said I looked like crap...haha.
We headed down to dover to have lunch...and I was wondering what was taking Kenneth so long.Then I saw him hurrying towards our table..and he bought Panadol Cold for me!Was super touched(and surprised) by this simple gesture."Dawn,must take the Panadol and get better ok?If you blow your nose too much,the nasal passage will get inflammed!".Lols,good old Kenneth..everybody calls him "popiah" because you can depend on him for anything and to have everything,bao ga liao.Come to think of it,I don't really understand that explaination.But hey,he likes to eat popiah too!I remember the time when I was wallowing in depression,he called me up to talk and attempt to cheer me up.The keyword is "attempt",he didn't manage to make me feel better...but the fact that he bothered to call and talk meant something to me.Thank you Kenneth,you're a great fren...really felt tons better after taking medicine^_^

Laugh Out Loud.

2006-10-08T23:40:00.000-07:00

The haze keeping you in and there's nothing to do?Are you grumpy?

Haha,swiped this pic from Linus.Its a...yoda cat!Hmm,the little fuzzy creature doesn't seem too pleased to be related to the famous Star Wars character though...

Derrick showed us this amusing diet advertisement.FuNNY!!

Haze

2006-10-08T01:35:00.000-07:00

Ack,look at the haze!I swiped this pic from Jinquan's blog.It may look nice in the pic..But its terrible when you're actually walking in it...and breathing in the wonderful,polluted air.The haze is so thick,you can see a clear beam of light coming out of the car's headlights.As I was going home,I looked out of the window of the bus and realised I couldn't see anything beyond 10m!Kinda dangerous for drivers and motorists>.<...
Grrr,and people are falling ill coz of this haze.Lols,my brother's ill with a fever and sore throat right now...and he hijacked my bed and aircon.Haha,so now I'll be sleeping on the mattress.-.-
Felt so disgusted when I read Xiaxue's comment box.This indonesian got peeved at Xiaxue's blatant rudeness of her country..and thus started verbally attacking singapore.Pfft,no class.Yes,Xiaxue was rude and crude..but there was no reason to insult us back.Afterall,trees are being burnt out of convienence in the expense of singaporeans' health...oh wells.
I hope it clears up soon..

Smile like you mean it

2006-10-04T23:10:00.000-07:00

Almost all of us are familiar with the painting of Mona Lisa.I've heard that the artist,Leonardo Da Vinci actually hired entertainers to amuse his subject when he was painting her portrait.Thus,that famous subtle smile.But is she really happy?
I've always had a certain liking for Vincent Van Gogh,amongst all the artists.Undoubtedly he was one of the most eccentric,but he was also one of the most honest.His colours on his pieces were painted to reflect his mood at that period of time...and that is what I admired most about his art.Even when he was impoverished,and people didn't want to buy his sad,gloomy paintings...He didn't revert back to painting happy,yellow sunflowers.But I must admit..he did have alot of ailments through his lifetime...>.<
Haha,I'm in a class full of cam-whores.Let's face it,most of us DO like taking photos.Why?Most of the time its becoz we want to capture the Kodak moment,or life as we wish it to be.How we hold on to these memories...wishing that these times will never end.Some take photos for the glamour,and similiarly...don't we all wish we could stay in there?

*on the subject of photos and paintings...
You painted me a picture of world,and the Kingdom of Heaven.You've shown me the painting of my redeemtion,and my heritance.Can you paint me a picture of tomorrow?I need Your insight.

why.

2006-10-04T22:09:00.000-07:00

There will be an answer,let it be.

Gahhh!

2006-10-04T02:39:00.000-07:00

Heeheehee,cute isn't it?
Ack,I fell down while cycling during the ninjado chalet(pics will be uploaded next time!) and ended up with scrapes on my elbow and hands.First few nights was alittle gross,coz pus kept oozing out of the wound on my palm(bleh!).Had trouble finding a position to sleep as well,coz resting on the wounds stung.But its getting on ok now...scabs have hardened up,so as well as I don't rub against it or poke it too much,it'll be fine.But argh,the one on my elbow...that huge scrab.I'm now fighting the mad urge to pick at the scabby layer of my wound("Nice souvenir from the chalet"quoted by Ah Cheong,aka Mark Cheong.).it looks awfully gross upclose...a nauseating shade of brown that looks as if its some rare form of mold that is growing on me.Peer closer at it and you can see*gasp* tiny hairs!!!I thought it was unlikely,but seems that hairy pple stay hairy.(I can't wait to get a depilator!)..But yeh,even the touch of it feels gross.I had the same grossed out feeling when I saw the grand master's corn-cushioned hands(shhhh) but ahh...he's a nice guy.Arghhhh...my hand is...itching...to peel it off.Although I know that..

1.It was hurt later and start bleeding again.

2.It'll leave a scar.

Its juz so tempting.Lols,I sound nuts...its grotesque pleasure,I know.

Rome!

2006-10-03T15:26:00.000-07:00

Did this quiz on myjellybean.com...its about which european city best suits your personality and I got...
26 - 35 POINTS: YOUR BEST EURO TRIP IS TO ROME:Style and substance in an intoxicating mix, that's you! You'll love the dolce vita (sweet life) of the "Eternal City." It's fabulous food and beautiful buildings will appeal to your senses, and you'll enjoy the heady mix of people who congegrate at its plazas and cafes.
*jumps around*,yeps...Rome is one of the places that I most particularly want to visit.Rome,Paris and Venice!^_^

Check out this cool pic.At first glance,its a frog.Its definately a frog sitting on a shallow pond with a background of greenery.But when you tilt your head to the right...Its a horse!See the mane,and the chiselled facial features of a horse?There are many things in life that has 2 sides.And both of them are not necessarily incorrect.We've juz got to tilt our head alittle,and figure out the different point of view of the other person.

The best use of space.

2006-10-03T14:00:00.000-07:00

I was travelling on a bus 162 one afternoon afew weeks ago...And to my surprise,instead of advertisements nailed onto the interior of the bus,I saw quotable quotes plastered all over.It was seriously kinda cool,spent the rest of the short bus ride scanning the ceiling..reading the various quotes.
At the end of your life,its not the number of years in your life that matters..Its the life in those years that are important.
We can't all learn to be brave and patient if the world was all bright and cheery.
It is not the evil in this world that makes it a cruel place,it is those who look on and do nothing.
Simple strings of words.It was nothing life shattering or particularly enlightening.But they were simple truths that afew of us ever stop to consider.It was too bad the ride was so short..or I would have walked to the back of the bus to read more of the quotes(not caring what the passengers might think).To me it was the best use of space I've ever seen in the bus in a long time.

Turn it up and dance!

2006-09-27T19:43:00.000-07:00

I searched up for the video on Youtube mainly coz I really like the song "promiscuous" by Nelly Furtado.Haha,I'm still amazed by the revamp in her music...I still remember afew years ago(or was it,MANY years ago?) when she had jetblack,center parting and straight hair.Always tied back in a simple low ponytail or braids,with her large silver hoop earrings and singing "I'm like a bird" and "Turn out the lights".Haha,I didn't really like her music then.Didn't like the beat,her crooning or the lyrics(I'm like a bird,I'll only fly away?Bah,cliche.Or maybe juz not to my taste).That's why when "promiscuous" was played on the radio...I didn't even know that it was her.Not until I passed a music shop and the large poster of her and her new album was displayed on the shop front.And I was like...WAHH?That's Nelly Furtado,I don't even RECOGNISE her!She looks so hot now..very pretty.And not to mention the change in her music!Oh well,I'm not complaining..coz I like her new song.^_^
Justin Timberlake,remember that ex-NSYNC boyband?Lols,he's another one with a change in music as well.
And Jewel?How she used to sing sweet,innocent songs.But when she released a newly revamped album,one with stronger and more aggressive beats..a new sexy look and pose plastered on the cover.She makes it BIG.Oh well,it was then..now she seems to have disintegrated like most artistes.
There are many others,like M2M.Oh my gosh,that sugary sweet girlband..remember?I remember how their saccharine sweetness was so diabetic it gave me a headache(likewise how eating sweet popcorn gives me a headache).How much their voices changed over the years!Or rather,Marion(dunno if I spelt correctly).I don't know where the other M2M girl went to.But ah,Marion's songs are still ok.
Shows how much the media has evolved eh?Music is becoming increasingly sexually suggestive,and the beats are stronger.Sex sells.Lols,maybe in 10years time the media will decide to do away with censorship and come up with an accuse like,"Oh,music is an expression of the individual..and we have no right to repress their creativity.But ah wells,we'll see if that grey area does come in 10 year's time hm?
But yeah,I have to say..I do like Nelly's new song.

Comedy and a very clogged up nose.

2006-09-27T18:50:00.000-07:00

Bah!I'll ill!!!I was fine 2 days ago.But yesterday when I woke up,I found that I had a scratchy throat and a very runny nose.And it juz kept getting worse as the day progesses.Soon,my throat felt like it was rubbed against sand paper..and the sore throat slowly proceded to a fever.Popped afew panadols and cold medicine to keep the stuffy nose and fever at bay.Now my nose is terribly clogged up,oh well..at least unlike yesterday when the mucus was trickling down so freely like it was water(bleh,disgusting).I hope I get well in time for the ninjado chalet at Pulau Ubin.And I feel so bad for bailing out on Eileen today>.<.Was supposed to accompany her to check in the lecture chalet today at 2pm..but then alas,I fell ill at an uncannily unfortunate time again.Argh,feel so terrible...so I checked out Youtube.Take a look at this clip and amuse yourself.^_^

:)

2006-09-23T02:18:00.000-07:00

Talked to Nat.Although I don't see him often anymore,we still do talk over msn.
"if i recall correctly the bible says that which is of man is not to be trusted?Because man are fallible?and that God is infallible?Trying to understand something we were not meant to understand will just land us with a very very very big headache.."
Yepyeps Nat,I'm moving on.Although I walked away from it,I never really turned away from it.From time to time I'd return to the site of disaster to see how things are,and by reading every word there..it gnawed at my heart once more.And yes,I'm sick and tired of it...becoz that is not what God wants for me...
btw,thanks for being there for me..Although I've only known you for afew months,you're different=).Haha,thanks for listening!

Father to daughter.

2006-09-23T01:40:00.000-07:00

Quieten down,my little child.
I'll be with you,and I'll hold you through.
Haven't I told you,I will never leave you?
Even when you fall,I'll lift you up.
I'll be your strength and soon;
You'll be able to walk again.
When all is dark,and you cannot see;
Hold on to me,and I will walk you through.
Trust in me,I will not abandon you
I will never give you more than you can bear.
Sleep now,my litle child.
I'll be with you,and I'll hold you through.
Why the stormy heart and the downcast soul?
Ayos Lang,adakah kamu lupa?
saya anak,kamu jadi apa?
kamu diri sakit,
dan dalam kamu menangis.
Just reach out,and you will find
That I'm always there for you,
my child.

Outrageousness and Otak

2006-09-17T23:35:00.000-07:00

Ok,firstly let me get this out of my system..
I've juz stumbled across such a outrageous,appalingly repugnant piece of rubbish that I thought was dead and buried.it reeks and is revolting,its utterly insulting!It still hurts because I choose to be stubbornly simpleminded,how can the simpleminded manipulate?But alas,someday we'll understand.

Anyways...The Outrageousness
Today Benben came up to me when Henry,the others and I were having lunch at dover coffeeshop...
Benjamin:*excitedly*Do you want to know my results??!!
Me:Haha..ok,I'll tell you mine too!Did better than I expected..
Benjamin:*rattling off*I got 2 ADs,1A+,2As and one B..*beams*
---All of us sit there in stunned silence---
Me:Wahhh...well done!!!*shakes benben's hand*
Benjamin:So,wad did you get?
Me:erm,hmm...haha,erm...
Lols,after awhile he got it out of me...Wow,Ben's really smart..and good at wad he does as well.So happy for him^_^..
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And the Otak..
At the BBQ,I made frens with a little brown and white cat!Its super cute..with big eyes and fluffy paws.As straycats do,it was scavaging around for bits of food at the BBQ area.I took pity on it,so I decided to feed it...otak!Haha,Rees said that the cat wouldn't eat it coz it was spicy.But surprisingly,it(I selfnamed it "mieowmieow",lols.) ate up the portion of otak I gave it...and after it was done,turned its furry head back at me and "mieowed".Ahh..so it likes otak!
So I asked it(hey,I love animals!) whether it wanted to have somemore..in chinese.
"mieowmieow,ne yao che otak mah?" and the cat went "mieowww".Haha...hmm,it understands chinese and loves otak..So it must be a Singaporean cat!^_^I entertained the cat for awhile...until Bee and Eileen(who were afraid of cats) started yelling.So ah ming(mingjian) had to chase the little mieowmieow away...
Ah wells.

Class chalet at Downtown East!

2006-09-17T18:00:00.000-07:00

From the 12-14th of Sept our class had a chalet stayover at Downtown East's Resort..
Since Bee and I had ninjado performance practice on Tues,we only head down to the chalet(along with William and his classmate,coz he had his class chalet there too!) at night.In the first night some of them went night cycling..But since Bee and I were tired from the practice,afew of us juz bummed around in the chalet and talked...and took lots of photos!!Haha,1M06 is a bunch of camera whores...

Rees and I(yay,feel so fresh and clean after bathing!!!^_^)

Eileen and I

Wahhaaha,Eileen and I took lots of pics.Since she has this belief that whenever 3 people take photos together,they'll end up quarreling.So yeps...Bee,Eileen and I had to take separate pics.

Wheeheehee!

Err..hhaaahaha,wad can I say?The bed was super bouncy!!!*boingboing*^_^

Booo...Haha,Bee and I both have chubby cheeks...

GuanHao look's alittle like a turtle in this pic...=D
We're a bunch of slackers that don't wanna go night cycling.Wahh,wad's that I see on Guanhao's face?Yes,I see it!Its a very rare hint of a smile!(lols,for those who don't know...he rarely smiles in photos.In fact,almost never?)
After that the night cyclers came back...So we roped Shuan into our photo frenzy!For the rest of the night they talked crap,and told ghost stories..while Beesim,Mingjian and I slept(I'm not sure about the others).I drifted in and out of sleep...so occassionally I joined in their conversations..and scared the crap out off them coz they thought I was sleeping!My crazy classmates had breakfast at 6 or 7am in the morning the next day..then slept the rest of the morning away.Bee and I decided to eat breakfast later(Mark came along too!).After we helped Shuan return the bicycles...we had breakfast at Mcdonalds'.Mark and I went swimming after that..
I love swimming..Since I live in a HDB,I rarely swim.Thus I'd always find every opportunity to swim.Oh my,the bruise from last night's ninjado practice is visible!Look,the shoulder near my back.Haha,too much rolling on hard ground.Oei,stop taking photos of meeee!Haha...
Eileen,Beesim,Van,Serene and Rees went to Wild Wild Wet in the afternoon while Mingjian and some others bought some stuff in the nearby Cheers for the BBQ.
At 5pm,we started the BBQ!
Swabbing the chicken and sausages with butter and honey...yummy.That's me at the far right swabbing honey on the sausages..

Lifang and I

ChangYuan and I.Haha,Changyuan's very greedy...look at the number of satay sticks he's holding!Muahahaa,now he's got a tummy upset after eating to much..that greedy pig!(just kidding)

Beesim,Serene,Eileen and I...we're the band of sisters!Lols,oh wait...including Vanessa too!Where's Van??!!

Serene and I in the midst of BBQing.

The girls of 1M06(or rather,majority of them...).Demure aren't we??Heehee..
Haha,not quite...we're a funky bunch of peeps!

Rees and I

Serene and I (lols,why is the Victory sign oh so popular in photos?)
Cheers pple!Cranberry and Vodka is NICE.I love cranberries!!!And cranberry juice!From left to right,top then bottom:Serene,Eileen,Me!,Shuan,Changyuan(looking alittle drunk) and Mingjian(our clas prez!Don't be fooled by his ah bengish look...he's one of the nicest,dependable and most responsible people I know).Haha,by the end of the night Van totally knocked off on the bed..while Eileen didn't feel too great.Our Mingjian was staggering around(lols)...Bee wanted to get drunk,but I didn't let her..so I poured the most of the vodka into my cup instead.You're my friend,and I won't let you getting drunk ok?If there's anything up you can always come to me..please don't drink your sorrows away.

"Wahhhd??You wanna fight izit?"Lols,nah..just kidding.That's not wad he said.Told you Changyuan looked alittle..drunk in the previous photo.Look how flushed he is!Haha,lousy lah you Changyuan..

Roasting marshmellows on a solitary burning charcoal.

Pretty?Its even more impressive in real life...We were playing with sparklers and got alittle creative.There were still traces of alcohol in the bottle,so Guanhao hung a lit sparkler inside the bottle..The alcohol boiled due to the heat and the fumes burned,thus the flaming on top.It was rather dangerous though...the glass could have cracked,and I wouldn't know wad would happen if the flames came in contact with the alcohol.>.<

Here's another one!

Mr Mak and Ms Teh joined us for the BBQ...After awhile Ms Teh left,and Mr Mak joined us in our little amusing(and,dangerous) experiments..

Changyuan,our friendly class terrorist made rockets from bundling several sparklers together.Guanhao was the only brave one to set the sparkler alit.It was seriously quite scary...All of us stood far far away,although the direction which the roket would shoot was rather unpredictable.I wasn't afraid for my life..but the rocket could seriously do some serious damage..

1st attempt:It frizzled,and frizzled...then...Went off with a huge explosion of sparks!Problem is,it didn't lift the ground.

2nd attempt:Frizzled and frizzled...juz when it was about to take off...It tipped over and exploded,sending sparks everywhere(very pretty,but seriously scary..the girls screamed and the guys ran for cover.)..

3rd attempt:Changyuan wrapped the rocket in cupboard...This would send the rocket even higher(ahhh!!*covers eyes*) or dueto the contained pressure,it could result in a BIGGER explosion 0.0..Before lighting it,Changyuan suggested we hide in the porch outside our chalet room.But forunately we didn't because....

It frizzled,and frizzled...then with a loud explosion(accompanied with girls screaming),it shot up into the air(as many people ducked for cover)..zoomed down and landed in flames,ON OUR PORCH.*phew*..The picture of the charred remains of our faithfully scary rocket.As we watched the playback...(Changyuan took down the recording on his phone)we could see the phone jerk back and go blurry(he jumped and ran) when the explosion took place!Lols.

Later Mark explained that the cupboard actually was to force the pressure of the sparkles downwards...thus allowing it to shoot up in the air.Since it was so hot,the cupboard caught fire in the process.Therefore the burning on the porch...Hahaa,and Mark's shoes were there!

That was enough excitement for the day...so we cleared up.Mr Mak had to head back home..so some of us walked him to the carpark.Haha,I'm sure Mr Mak had a blast with us^_^(pun intended).So fun!

memories

2006-09-17T00:02:00.000-07:00

Memories are not enough.
Because I have so few of you.
I remember you sitting at the porch.
On the rattan chair,fanning yourself.
There,you'd watch the world go by..
Every family reunion.You're there.
"Po Po".That's what you were known as.
Not Elizabeth Choy,the survivor.
Not the war heroine.
You were compassionate and strong.
And your story touched everybody.
To everybody,you were a singapore icon.
To us,you are 'po po'.
"Dawn is growing up to be a young lady".
I remember that line..
With the face crinkled into a smile,
you were beaming at me.
Cancer.6months,4 people.
Oncology research,is that going to be my field in the future?
I can't believe I won't see you again at christmas.
Its hard to believe that rattan chair will be empty.
But yet,I believe that at the same time.
You are in heaven..
And there is no pain or suffering there,
and you've met Jesus and worshipped at his feet.
I can juz imagine..
All the angels applauding,
for all the 96 years you've lived on this earth.
The blessings and inspiration you brought.
I can juz imagine..
You seated at the porch of your heavenly home,
on a rattan chair,and fanning yourself with the traditional fan.
Smiling down on us.
And watching the world go by.

today was the funeral..and it was held at St Andrew's Cathedral(its so beautiful!).It was rather emotional..and I had a hard time suppressing all the tears and emotions.Later we went to Mandai to the crematorium(spelling?)...After the cremation,auntie bridget popped pink champage in celebration of "po po"s going home..*sniffs*

Results are out!

2006-09-16T00:54:00.000-07:00

The stupid sms came at 9+ in the morning when I was expecting it in the afternoon!Haha,wasn't mentally prepared for it...But amazingly,I did better than I expected.
Cell Biology-A
Communication Toolkit-B
Individual and Community-B
Infotech-B
Organic and Biological Chem-D
Trends in Life sciences-B+
Yay..I got my A for bio!!*jumps around*I'll wish for an AD...but hey,an A's good!Comm toolkit...ahh,quite sad..The group project pulled me down.But B's ok I guess.Infotech..lols,honestly I'm surprised.I've been flunking Infotech and OBC with fantastic Fs all the while that I must assume it was the project work that pulled it up.And yes,I studied like crazy for chem...and for a person who are failed chem since secondary school,I'm content.Beggers can't be choosers.But I do hope to do better!I love TLS..I juz love problem based learning.I'd like an A...But right now,I'm content with a B.^_^
For awhile,my mind could not register that I had passed,and crossed the first hurdle in my poly life.I had so expected to fail my OBC and Infotech.Whilst stareing at the sms...I sensed God chuckling away in laughter,saying "My child,you have such little faith in Me.."

Another one bites the dust

2006-09-16T00:20:00.000-07:00

Can I say it?"Another one,and another one...another bites the dust"
There's a popular advertisement I've often seen in bus stops...1 in 20 singaporeans are diagonosed with cancer everyday.It urges people to start having regular screening.
On the 14th of Sept,the famous war heroine Elizabeth Choy passed away with cancer in the pancreas.The world knows her as the war survivor,Elizabeth Choy.I knew her as "po po".She wasn't closely related to me...she was my cousin's grandma.I remember when I was young...my cousin and I were particularly close,and I often saw "po po".She always had a smile on her face...at that tender young age I did not know the amount of strength that soft smile hid beneath.Although she suffered from pancreatic cancer..she refused chemotherapy."Leave it to God",not many pple are willing to surrender their lives to God to such an extent.As I grew older,I become more and more reticent...I was painfully shy amongst my relatives.Slowly,I cut myself away from them.Do you still remember me?The second youngest of the Bay family.I knew you since I was a little girl...but as the years passed I reduced myself to a stranger to the family.I can't even remember the last time I saw you!If I'd known it was the last time I'll see you..I wouldn't have greeted you with the typical lukewarm smile that I gave everyone.I'm so sorry...po po.

ERS camp

2006-09-10T23:30:00.000-07:00

From the 5-6th of Sept,afew of the ninjado pple(Mark C,Mark L,Derrick,William,Beesim and I) went for Joyce's Envionmental Rangers Camp.Although it was short..I found it pretty good.She's really worked very hard for this camp..and I have to say that it was a job well done*claps*.I really enjoyed myself,coz I love nature and animals^_^...
First stop,the Botantic Gardens!We visited the Orchid garden!!

(beware,excessive indulgence of photos coming right up...but the flowers and animals pics are seriously very beautiful!)

All photos were taken from Mark's camera phone...rather good hmm?Too bad photography is best regarded as a hobby...there aren't much career opportunities in the photography field in Singapore...
Enlarge the photos and see the little water droplets on it!Pretty...Especially the white orchids,I love white flowers...
These white orchids have a slight tinge of pink on the petals..^_^ Oooh,sprays of little white orchids..ahh,juz love white flowers(along with dark red ones...)

Haha,I was oohing and aahing over the flowers when Mark took this shot without me noticing.

How many times we walk pass a tree and fail to notice the intricate patterns the fanning out branches make?
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After the botantic gardens...we did the tree top trail in Macrichie(mind my spelling).It was a long walk..I would have liked to observe the trees but my eyes were glued to the floor most of the time,concentrating on not slipping on the rotting leaves or tripping over the roots.But I did love...THE SUSPENSION BRIDGE! Oooooh,its a lonnnnng way downnnn....Getting dizzy?

Look at the canopy!!

I like this shot...very artistic,no?It was meant to be a silhouette of the dead tree trunks...But I dabbled with the enhancement button and..there!You can see the details now..and the lighting is more prominant...
Mark and I on the bridge!Lols,he was very afraid that I'll accidentally drop his phone down the bridge..But nah,I highly doubt so.I'm extremely paranoid,won't be so careless.

We saw a little snake hiding under the bridge!
On the way down,we stopped beside the huge pond to play with the terrapins.And Derrick was terrorising them!Whenever they crawled up the grassy side,he would use his slipper to flip them back into the water!It looked rather funny..but the terrapins probably got pretty pissed becoz they started crawling towards him in large numbers!Hahaha,go attack Derrick,terrapins!!
Oooh,it looks alittle grumpy...
Haha,he looks alittle siansian...
We saw an iguana!
Back in NP,and feeling tired after the long walk...

Ewww..my hair's like a broomstick!Sniffsz..

The next day we went to the Hay Dairies Farm...
Baby goats are called kids...
We were allowed to feed them with alfafa...

An old white goat!Its mark's good friend...coz Jingquan often calls Mark the abino white boar...
In the goat farm,some goat's horns are burnt off to prevent them from hurting each other when they butt each other with their heads.But this poor goat,has only one horn!

Goats have weird pupils...

Cute!

This goat's got such shaggy fur...very woolly mammoth. Haha,the goat kept wanting to lick my hand whenever I patted it.

This goat knows how to pose...

On the way back to school...

sobs

2006-09-09T00:00:00.000-07:00

I got home,and took a nice shower.It would have been pleasant except that...ARGGHHHhhh!!!!*sniffsniff*I was horrified,and so scared I nearly cried.Its worsening.I so desperately wished it wasn't happening,but the painful truth was on my hands.I wish I could juz go back in time,when I could have done things differently.Some would say,so what?Yes,perhaps its vanity...but there is always a small amount of superficiality within everybody of us.Superficiality subtly controls the world,the way we think.I've heard stories of people overcoming the pain their outward appearance bring them...because they're well aware that its the inward beauty that counts.And yes,the people who have their dramatic life stories would go "pfft" to my little woe..But I can't bear to.As much as I am of a nonconformist,I am simply not brave enough to endure what they went through.
If I would have gone back afew years,how I would have done things differently.Its ironic,how it was vanity that caused me to do those things..and in turn reared its ugly head back at me.

Musings

2006-09-08T16:23:00.000-07:00

Its been a year. Can’t believe its been 365days since..it happened. Wow.
Although time has faded the memory slightly,I still remember it fairly clearly..and the emotions that encompassed it. Even though its been long over,the scar of paranoia always remained.I’m still as paranoid as ever.>.<
Steve Irwin, he’s got so many people mourning his death. Its so ironical..being pierced in the heart by a stingray…when he spent most of his time dealing with crocs(thus,the nickname crocodile hunter). Its sad, having an animal activist who worked so hard to conserve and understand animals…to be killed by it in the process.
Tomorrow Abby’s (Abraham) gonna introduce me to his world of Dota. Gotta wake up and meet him at BTP at 9.30am.My goodness, that’s an unearthly hour to be out on a Saturday morning. The correct time to wake up on Saturday morns is 10am, not 7.30am…especially for gaming. But then again,I’ve never fancied gaming…nor will I ever understand why it captivates majority of the guys.But its no harm trying it out..although I know Abby’ll posistively die laughing when he sees me play. One of the reasons why I’ve never bothered to try out computer gaming was that I didn’t want to embarrass myself in the process…but hey, in the accompany of friends I don’t mind embarrassing myself(or at least,not that much)=D.
Yay, I’m starting work in Haagen Daz again next week! Although everybody I used to work with has moved on(either with studies or higher paying jobs), it doesn’t matter coz its only a holiday job. I intend to quit right after the holidays end. I love ice cream!^_^Wahahaha,I’m so greedy.I love food…that’s why all the jobs I’ve held are in the F&B industry. My favorite job was still at Penang Place..because I really felt a sense of belonging there. Everybody was so warm and caring, it was juz like a family. That’s why I stayed on for so long, I loved the food…but more importantly,I loved the pple.I didn’t mind traveling all the way to Jurong just to work. Uncle Paul and Auntie Hannah are such nice people, whenever Christmas or any other occasion comes along we’ll be invited to their home for dinner. Throughout the period I’ve worked there…it wasn’t always a employer and employee relationship. It was as if I was accepted. However, more and more people started to work in PP,and it was hard to accommodate everybody in the work schedule...and I knew it was impractical for me to stay on. Don’t fall in love with your business unless you want to carry the baby, my dad always told me.
Uncle Joseph (AMC) was having lunch with his colleague who is a nonchristian. And the colleague, being a proud father full of love for his little 5 year old daughter was gushing about how much he loves her.
Uncle Joseph: Do you love Megan(the daughter)?
Colleague: Yes I do,very much.
Uncle Joseph: How do you know that Megan loves you as well?
Colleague : erhm,hmm…I can see that she loves me when she listens to me.And when she doesn’t do things to hurt me.
Uncle Joseph:*smiles*Likewise with my God.
I thought that it was so true. Similarly, when a mother and son has a genuine relationship..The son would subconsciously have a dislike and fear of doing anything that displeases or hurts her. Likewise in any relationship, when you genuinely love a person…you would not want to hurt him. When such a fear of hurting the person is not there…the relationship is not present.
I’ve often wondered why Christians behave different from others. How Christianity could so radically change a person’s live. So wholly changed, I’ve often wondered why I had to follow the Christian’s behavior of the norm. Although its hard…the reason is clear. I’m in a relationship with my Lord. And I don’t want to do anything that hurts Him. The life that was once mine to live, I surrender it to Him. Its my life, and I shall live it as a worship to Him.
Hey God,its me again.its been a long time since I've talked to you through blogger eh?Just wanna tell you..that I'm coming back.I've grown tired wandering outside without you.Show me which areas displeases you.It seems that I've hurt you so many times...Yet you forgave me.I know that you'll never give me more than I can bear...take me out of the darkness Lord,I don't want to be there anymore.Teach me to trust in you with all of my heart..and lean not on my own understanding.

Ninjado!

2006-09-05T01:33:00.000-07:00

hHaha,while digging through the ninjado equipment cupboard...The Marks(Cheong and Lim,haha..) found two swords,one miniature sword..juz the right size for me.And another long one for Jingquan,who's super lanky.So all of them came up with the idea of taking photos of Jingquan and I doing the same stance...to see the difference in size.For amusement's sake=D

Hmm,this one's not so aligned...Not very nice..

Oooh,cool...Yay!Its one looks nicer...^_^

Yay,so nicely aligned!!Don't you wish you could play with swords too?Lols..

Sunscreen-Baz Luhrmann

2006-09-04T00:13:00.000-07:00

I wouldn't excatly call it a song...because the words don't rhyme nor go alongside with the rhythm in the background.But this rhapsody of musings are one of the wisest pieces of advice I've ever read...The lyrics are so simple and true.No matter how noisy it is in the car...whenever this 'song' is played on the radio,my dad will turn up the volume and demand that we shut up and listen. Soooo...Shh,and read!Its a refreshing piece of life nuggets.And I added in afew cutesy pictures I found in a forwarded email^_^ to go along!

"Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of '99 If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience…I will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded. But trust me, in 20 years you'll look 'back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked….You're not as fat as you imagine.

Don't worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing everyday that scares you

Sing!!!

Don't be reckless with other people's hearts, don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.

Floss

Don't waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind…the race is long, and in the end, it's only with yourself.

Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch

Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life…the most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still don't.

Get plenty of calcium.

Be kind to your knees, you'll miss them when they're gone.

Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't, maybe you'll have children,maybe you won't, maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary…what ever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either – your choices are half chance, so are everybody else's. Enjoy your body, use it every way you can…don't be afraid of it, or what other people think of it, it's the greatest instrument you'll ever own..

Dance…even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.

Read the directions, even if you don’t follow them.

Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents, you never know when they'll be gone for good.

Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go,but for the precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.

Travel.

Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will philander, you too will get old, and when you do you'll fantasize that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don't expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund, maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one might run out.

Don't mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.
But trust me on the sunscreen…

Just a closer walk with Thee.

2006-09-03T00:50:00.000-07:00

Today our YOUTHPHORIC youth ministry went to Changi Beach!On the way there...JunMing and I were listening to the song,"Just a closer walk with Thee" on his handphone.It was one of the songs sang during Youth Sunday...its very jazzy,and I love it..lyrics and the tune..
I'll post up the photos taken once I get them from Shern and Bevie!^_^

I am weak, but Thou art strong;

Jesus, keep me from all wrong;

I'll be satisfied as long

As I walk, let me walk close to Thee.

Just a closer walk with Thee,

Precious Jesus, hear my plea,

Daily walking close to Thee,

Let it be, dear Lord, let it be.

Through this world of toil and snares,

If I falter, Lord, who cares?

Who with me my burden shares?

None but Thee, dear Lord, none but Thee.

Just a closer walk with Thee,

Precious Jesus, hear my plea,

Daily walking close to Thee,

Let it be, dear Lord, let it be.

When my feeble life is o'er,

Time for me will be no more;

Guide me gently, safely o'er

To Thy kingdom shore, to Thy shore.

Just a closer walk with Thee,

Precious Jesus, hear my plea,

Daily walking close to Thee,

Let it be, dear Lord, let it be.

2006-09-03T00:13:00.000-07:00

I don't know why...I just don't feel that close to you anymore.
When I saw your expression,it was as if I took a knife and stabbed you with it.
I'm so sorry,I don't know how it ended up like that.
I don't know why things turned out like that.
I don't understand it myself.
I wished things were the same again.
But it hurts.
please,even when it seems like I'm a million miles away..
Juz pretend that I'm right here with you.
I juz need time.

Teacher's Day

2006-09-02T01:17:00.000-07:00

As I walked up the road leading to MGS...I felt emotions instantly rushing back.The bus stop fondly known as "the mobil bus stop"(coz it used to be a mobil station beside the bus stop)...now has Cheers instead!I remember the time I used to hang out there in my primary school days.I remember my primary school buddies and I spliting the cost of a 1.5litre tub of cookies and cream(Nestle or Kings' or some brand like that)...and attempted to finish it.We couldn't though...lols.
The wide empty road that leads to MGS...I've treaded on that path so many times in unearthly early hours,sweltering afternoons and even cool evenings.
As I reached the guard house..I saw...MAYYYYYY!!!!She came from PJC,it was so good to see her!She grew her hair long...And looks even prettier than ever!
Met Seewah,Elaine,Ruiqi,Leemey,Weixin,Viv,Deb..etcetc. and had lunch in the canteen.Sniffsniff,I missed the canteen uncle's malay food!Its so SUPER good..and so super cheap as compared to tertiary institue's canteen food.but I couldn't eat it coz I already ate,and didn't have space for anymore!I really should come back I visit one day...uncle's Nasi Lemak on Mondays are excellent!
It was so fun...popping into the staffroom and visiting all my old teachers.It was so good to see all of them again..Ms Tan,Mrs Cheong...Mrs Nat Lim..all the teachers I held dear to me.Many were amused by my blue hair extentions...especially Mrs Lim...
"Dawwwwnnn,wads this on your hair??!!Aiyo...now you're all boobsy*blushes furiously*!Wow..hmphs,now that you left MGS you start dressing like that??!!"*Dawn runs away and hides behind May,who was laughing away*
Coming back to MGS yesterday was like having a family reunion...I spent 10 years there.The place was saturated in bittersweet memories for me.I haven't visited MGS since the time I collected my Olevel results.I had hoped that after receiving my results,I could walk away..leaving all unpleasantries and memories behind.But perhaps,one is never able to move on from a place she's spent a decade in.It had been my home for the past 10 years.It was a part of me.

Aching...

2006-08-30T01:30:00.000-07:00

Ahhh,on monday...after a long break from ninjado training due to exams,we started training again!Pfft,I was so super unfit...the first round around the nice blue track was tiring,although I got used to it by time we got to the second round.Argh,also gotten alittle inflexible after the long break.But that was quickly straightened out...so I could still snigger at Mark Lim and the guys going *argghh!!* when they stretched^_^Muahahaha.*evil grin*
Tuesday had to practice our ninjado performance routine for Jingzhou's wedding.It was really fun!Sadly,with my legs being shorter than the guys'...I had to take really huge steps and constantly reshuffle to get keep up with the other's strides.Being smaller than the guys,my movements had to be more exagerrated...Jingquan said or else I'd look very "flowery,flowery"...Lols.But it was fun^_^.I've gone to bed with aching muscles these 2 days,but its a good ache.The kind that lets you happily cuddle up in bed satisfied(wahhaha,calories and fats...be gone!)
http://www.myjellybean.com/fortunecookie/fortunecookie.html
Stumbled upon this vitual fortune cookie thing while looking through the www.myjellybean.com website,and its so utterly randomised its hilarious...
CLICK THE COOKIE TO GET YOUR FORTUNE!
(picture of a yummy fortune cookie placed under it.Personally,I'd be more interested in eating it than seeing some random greasy paper in the cookie.)
So I clicked on the cookie picture...
"The secret to true love lies in true friendship"
Erm,ok...wise words indeed.I clicked again!
"You will experience surprising good luck"
Wahhahaha,that's funny!Amused,I clicked again!
"You will soon inherit a piece of land."
Whoa,really?Haha,cool...but I'd highly doubt it.Couldn't resist it..so I clicked again..
"She who overuses the curling iron will have damaged tresses."
Haha,*nods firmly*true..that's why I never let my hair near a curling iron or hair dyer.My hair's been damaged enough already,and I don't wanna aggravate it more.>.<
Hahaha,CUTE.

Randomised.

2006-08-27T01:33:00.000-07:00

FINALLY,exams are over.Holidays seem rather busy though,with the upcoming class chalet...joyce's envionmental camp...ninjado cca...our ninjado performance for Jingzhou's wedding(cool..)..But its ok^_^,looking forward to the holidays.Gotta check with Haagen Daz to see if my job's still available...And Hippo's asking me when can I work in Penang place again.So cool...Now he's like the asst. "manager" in Penang place^_^helping Leonard out in the stuff.I miss the pple in PP!Uncle Paul,Auntie Hannah,Charis,Jem,Hippo,Gab,Nic,Debs...etcetc.*sobs*.Haha,nah...shadn't get emotional over it.I miss the FOOD there too!
Argh,speaking of food...I'm STUFFED.Although I haven't excatly eaten much.
I was supposed to meet Mark at PS,12pm.When I woke up,it was 11AM...I tell you,my biological clock has gone wocky since poly started.I practically leaped out of bed...bathed,changed and rushed out of the house to meet him.We had Carl's Jr for lunch(or in my case,brunch).I ate a WHOLE burger all by myself!^_^Carls Jr burgers are supersized...and also SUPER good.When I first caught sight of the burger I went,"WHOOA.." and thought I'd never be able to finish it all by myself.But apparently,the burger is SO fantastically good that it CANNOT be shared.TRY Carls Jr...it puts fastfood and burgers in a whole different level!You don't know what you're missing if you haven't tried it!Its fabulous!!Oh great...I seem to be hyperventilating over food-.-...Oh well,anyway..apparently the Carls Jr burger kept me going all the way till dinnertime(and I'm still full!).so juz ate an onion prata(I LOVE onions!).Now I'm STUFFED.>.<
I feel FAT.
Wait,I am abit FAT..
Lemme just be random for juz this once..i don't do it often.
10 random thoughts.
1.I wanna go to those nail art manicures.Bugis street does it for as low as $1 per nail!That's $10 for 2 hands...which is extremely CHEAP coz its nicely handpainted.I want!
2.I love apple chips.
3.Yay,I juz went shopping today..I love shopping!I think I've done enough shopping for quite awhile*guilty*.
4.I need to read more...I losing my bookworm-ism.
5.I'm FAT,sniffsniffs...
6.I'm worried about my exam results.
7.Some people think Xiaxue's a bitch...but ahh,it doesn't matter.I think she's an interesting individual that has strong opinions...who is able to write and express herself well.www.xiaxue.blogspot.com is entertaining!Perhaps she is bitchy sometimes,and I do not agree to it..but argh,its her blog.Cut her some slack...So wad if she wears too much makeup?Its her blog I'm reading.Juz as long as she cleanses her skin every night and she can carry on clogging her pores cause its what she wants to do.I doesn't concern me nor her writings.^_^
8.yay,P.O.A-people of Asia(went to Marina Square)..this shop sells stuff from asian designers...is having 50% off for all shoes!The stuff there are nice and interesting...and the shoes too!You rarely seen a nice pair of wedges going for $16(usual price:$32).The style was very bohemian like,with all the browns,designs with wooden as well as other beads and rope like material covering the wedge heels.NICE.And they were strappy too!^_^I love strappy heels.I like wedges too.I used to have a pair of wedges which I loved very much...but one day,my mom borrowed it and broke the heel.I have NO idea how she managed to break the heels of a wedgie...but she did*stands in awe*.Ah well,its ok...I still love her anyways.=)
8.I love my electric blue nail polish...its interesting.They match my blue streaks.
9.Why is Ashley so crazy over dover coffeshop's ban mian?He eats it EVERY sunday!Hmm,come to think of it...now I've got a craving for ban mian...haha,crap.Its 1.30 in the morning.
10.Bubble tea at dover is $1!!!
11.My poor guinea pigs have been grossly neglected.=(I feel quite bad...haven't paid attention to them...and the rest of the family didn't feed and care of them regularly.Leon,the original owner of our very first (late)guinea pig,Fluffy...doesn't bother with them.*sad*Nvm,I shall take good care of them this holidays...
12.wait,that seems like 11 points...including this 12!Lols,ah heck with it...
^_^

Exams...bah!

2006-08-21T23:08:00.000-07:00

Nopes,don't disturb me..I'm studying!Haha...mugging away for the organic chem paper(which,I took today) afew days ago in the library.Hmphs,Mark likes taking candid shots of pple>.<..Haha,with my unmessy,uncombed hair and all its unglamorousity...eeeks.Chem was *groan* let's not talk about it.So now,I've got 2days(which is 48hours) to cram in for the upcoming cell bio exam.Minus off sleeping and eating hours....not much...>.<

concrete angel-Martina McBride

2006-08-21T20:50:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-JX9-QHh2kU

Be kind,for everyone you meet is fighting a personal battle of their own.
Kenneth recomended this song to me...and each time I listen to it,I have an increasing fondness for this song.The lyrics are beautifully written,and tragically true.I connected with the song.Abuse,is such an unspoken taboo in society...nobody likes talking about it.When these little angels grow up,some become so desensitised to what they've experienced that they distance themselves from any form of true emotion.And there's the sterotypical outcome which everybody assumes..the person grows up to be embittered and full of anger.And yet,there are some that just get on with their lives.Sadly,physical scars will heal in time,but deep down emotional scars can never be erased.Concrete angel,how apt the title is.Kenneth,you have no idea how much I love this song..thanks for sending it to me:).
Every night,someone is crying.Perhaps not everyone has experienced being abused...But everyone has been emotionally scarred before in their lives.The most headstrong and independent may just as well be the one who fears vunerability the most.The ones with a perpetually happy exterior may secretly be tending a painful storm.When was the last time you've asked someone,"How have you been?" and actually meant it,and not just as a simple formality?A battle goes on inside every heart...and we,being so caught up in our own lives have forgotten how to see.

Agape cup

2006-08-17T00:07:00.000-07:00

On sunday,it was the Agape Cup finals!Our team(AMC) got into the finals once again...and played against CBC.It was a good match,the other team was really good!The score was 2-1,AMC won the agape cup for the second year running...well done pple!Was really proud of the amount of support the church gave to our aldersgate soccer team.And how all the players were so dedicated to the tournament...Donovan had to rush back to army straight after the game(lols,he was changing into his army uniform during the debrief),and Marshall had his GP prelims the next day(J2 at ACJC)!The crazy guy...must have headed the ball about 5,6 times throughout the match..

haha,before the finals there were friendly matches against the other teams.Got abit bored...so kidnapped(or rather,phonenapped) JunMing's hp and used his handphone camera to take pictures!Wahaha,I feel so narcissistic..taking self portraits of myself.Haha,but I don't do it often!So cut me some slack.I'm sure many of you have done it before..^_^

Joyce,Bevie,Shern and I!After mugging away on Sun,we decided to abandon our books and watch the match!Haha...*guilty*

OOoh,choir photos!

2006-08-15T00:03:00.000-07:00

Yay,I checked my old email address and received the file of Youth Sunday photos that Shern sent me a long time ago.There're VERY outdated pics..but Ahh,brings back the memories...I was in the choir for Youth Sunday,with Benjamin(Ben Ben!) and Lester as our choir ICs.You guys were great choir ICs!And haha,I'll always remember the look of pain on your face,Lester..whenever the choir started out offkey.And when Minyi was supposed to sing the soloist part in the beginning and out of habit,the whole choir juz stood up instead.Lols..=P

Ahh,the choir practiced from 11am-about 8pm on Saturday..the night before our Youth Sunday.We would have stayed longer..except that the uncle came up to the santuary and shooed us off.=)Sorry uncle!!

TeeHeehee,Gilbert(taupok)and Kelwin in their usual goofiness.Ashley and Yuliang!!Why so camera shy,guys?

Joanne Huang and I..haiz,apparently she's camera shy too.Lols,trying to act coy aren't we?Oooh,spot the blue streaks in my hair?

Aaron,Junlong,Daniel,Kelvin,Edwin and kelvin's bro lined up along the pavements of Dover.Why?Gee,I have no idea....We own this place!Wahahaha!Lols,nah.Edwin looks abit ah beng in this pic...

Sunday...its Youth Sunday! Nice banner?Afew of the YMers painted it...

Our choir group photo...don't we all look so BRIGHT?=D Drats,my face blocked by the mike..nvm,everybody esle looks nice!

Oh my,the colours...very bright.Reminds me of the assorted fruit(izit wad its called?) flavored mentos:PINK,ORANGE,YELLOW...

The ladies from the women's ministry are SO nice!Since it was Youth Sunday...they made lunch for us!*drools*Mind you,the women's ministry has EXCELLENT COOKS.The food was GREAT!!!Macaroni & cheese,Meatballs,Pizza,Crackers,Chocolate cake,Kevin(ah Lam)'s mom's famous CHEESE CAKE!...there was even fondue!Strawberries and Marshmellows dripped in melted dark chocolate!^_^*going high* yummmieeee...

Ahhh,Taylor's(Mark and Judy Mas.'s son) one of the cutest kids I've ever seen!One of the very few kids which I've squealed over^_^...So cute!Big,round eyes...chubby cheeks...etc.I remember when he was still a baby...now he's a walking,talking toddler!
Yuliang and Taylor..and the black balloon...
God speaks!And answers in 3 ways...Yes,Wait and No!Haha...duh.These were our 3 worship leaders for Youth Sunday...incidentally for the practice on Sat..Kevin,Junming and Shernise turned up in RED,ORANGE and GREEN!So interesting...haha...

Chem joke!

2006-08-13T22:34:00.000-07:00

Once upon a time,there were two atoms...
Atom 1 and Atom 2.
One day,Atom 1 lost an electron...
Atom1:Oh no Atom 2!I think I lost an electron!
Atom2:*Looks stunned*Oh no!Really?Are you sure,Atom 1?
Atom1:*double checks*Yes,Atom2!I'm sure,I'm positive!
Ha Ha Ha...
okok,I know...too much chemistry!

drools

2006-08-12T14:57:00.000-07:00

Argh,you know when you've gone insane from studying when...
You're dreaming of Kettle Chips.
Lols

Let's sing it!

2006-08-09T17:14:00.000-07:00

This song totally rocks,and my TLS group is totally hooked onto it.Ahh,although the semester's ending..I'll always remember the times we worked on the projects together.And how we start bursting out in song or uncontrollable laughter whenever we get too stressed.Thanks Shehnas,Aisyah and Rees for being such fun members to work with=)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qSLvcJ4I1mw

Bohemian Rhapsody,one of my favorite songs.Queen lives forever!Hahahahaa...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H3AxTByjrVQ

Lols,notice the amount of unimportant junk I've posted these days?Well,its the exam period...so in order to destress I'm posting stuff to amuse myself.You wouldn't want me posting stuff like..
Monday:Study
Tuesday:Study
Wednesday:Study
etcetc...
Would you?=D

Last note:Oh yeah,don't worry my dear...I'll post something about us soon...Just when I have the time ok?You better study too...shoo!Haha..

blindness

2006-08-09T00:26:00.000-07:00

Yeah!I finally got my glasses and happily viewing the world clearly...haha,let me tell you the tragic shortlived story of my previous pair of glasses..
From Sec 2-early poly year 1...I've been using a pair of blue framed ones.One fine night,when I finished batheing and I reached to put on my specs.Amusingly enough,the moment I picked it up to put it back on..it BROKE.Just like that.The right side just broke off by itself!Haha,my dad is convinced its because I was too ough with it..but I wasn't!I'm a very erm..gentle person!I was innocent at that point of time!*honest look*Really!
Well,at first I viewed it as a mini blessing in disguise...becoz I desperately needed a new pair of glasses...the lens on the blue framed ones were terribly scratched.Whenever I do lab work on the microscope in class I'll have to take my glasses off.Why?Because due to the ridiculous amount of scratches I have on my glasses...its even reflected onto the microscope view,which greatly obstructs my view of the specimens.I've informed my mom about my needing a new pair of glasses...but since my glasses were still wearable,we procrastinated for many months.Till it BROKE.Oh well,so...we just had to go make another pair.In replacement,I had to wear my mom's...which was a degree of 500.I'm as blind as a bat...with a degree of 700 on each eye.Although its a 200 degree difference..it was terrible walking around halfblind.Objects far off were hazy..and its super irritating,especially when I couldn't see the slides during lectures*sniffs*.I was ever glad when my new pair of specs(red framed) were made.The world became so much brighter,so much clearer!Dawn was very happy for a day,it was friday when I happily skipped to school with my brand new specs.Saturday came..we were playing captain's ball.It was fun..until...The ball flew towards me,I caught it..but something knocked off my specs.It fell to the ground,I was going to pick it up when...CRUNCH,Annabel accidentally stepped on it.At the moment,I felt my heart crunch as well..my poor one-day-old specs!Picked it up..and saw that one of the lens was neatly broken into half.Ah well..so it was back to the my aunt's optical shop.Haha,when I called up my aunt to enquire about the prices..she was like,"Harrrr....didn't you just collect it not long ago??!!".Yes I did,precisely 2 days ago...oh well,it was an accident.So Annabel paid for one lens..and yeah,I went to get my glasses done,again.I felt so blind that night without my glasses(or my mom's 500degree ones)...Couldn't even see the bus no.!Henry had to send me home...Couldn't even see the steps of the bus,argh.But thank God there weren't any serious injuries from the glass breakage.My new specs had glass lens...and when the glasses flew off my face it actually cut the side of my face.But forunately,wasn't my eyes.It was sooo close the eye area..and I'm very thankful it was just the side of my face.(dangerous,never use glass lenses unless you're really careful)
Again,for afew days I walked around half blind..and this time,it took alittle longer.after the close call my mom decided that plastic lenses were better.I was all too happy to anyway,didn't really fancy having my eyeballs sliced open.Walking around halfblind has taught me how important sight is.Can you imagine going blind?And not being able to see?To be unable to see anything,your surroundings and your loved ones?On the night when Henry sent me home..I experienced how helpless I was being blind.At night,with a 700 degree eyesight...I could barely see anything.I remember my fustrations the next few days not being able to see anybody and anything.It was crippling.Losing your sight is a very scary thing...>.<
Dawn is now happy because her newly mended specs are back,but never will she forget how precious the gift of sight is..

Smile!

2006-08-08T22:51:00.000-07:00

Okok,enough depressing stuff...SMILE?Awwwww man,isn't that one of the cutest things you've ever seen before??!!*squeals and jumps about*Baby seals are so adorable!!!Found the picture of this cutie in a forwarded email,attempting to increase the awareness of baby seal hunting.Terrible,how can anyone be so cruel as to kill baby seals for a SPORT?Look at it?Its so sweet!Stop seal hunting now!Its so cute!!!!!
Wahhahaha,I'm squealing over a cute little baby seal...and embarassing myself through my blog in the process...ahh,haha..ok,I'll stop.
But SERIOUSLY,AINT IT CUTE??!!!

Human Nature,its weird.

2006-08-08T22:36:00.000-07:00

1. People who point at their wrist while asking for the time.... I know where my watch is pal, where the hell is yours? Do I point at my crotch when I ask where the toilet is?

2 People who are willing to get off their ass to search the entire room for the T.V. remote because they refuse to walk to the T.V. and change the channel manually.

3 When people say "Oh you just want to have your cake and eat it too". Damn right! What good is cake if you can't eat it?

4 When people say "it's always the last place you look". Of course it is. Why the hell would you keep looking after you've found it? Do people do this? Who and where are they? Gonna Kick their asses!

5 When people say while watching a film "did you see that?". No Loser, I paid $12 to come to the cinema and stare at the damn floor.

6 People who ask "Can I ask you a question?".... Didn't really give me a choice there, did ya sunshine?

7. When something is 'new and improved!' Which is it? If it's new, then there has never been anything before it. If it's an improvement, then there must have been something before it, couldn't be new.

8 When people say "life is short". What the hell?? Life is the longest damn thing anyone ever does!! What can you do that's longer?

9 When you are waiting for the bus and someone asks "Has the bus come yet?". If the bus came would I be standing here, dumbass?

one by one

2006-08-08T14:00:00.000-07:00

One by one,they slipped away.Within a month,I've had 3 people I knew pass away due to cancer.In july,Michael and Melissa's mom..Last week,Uncle Tian Lye...and yesterday,Ms Goh,chemistry teacher in MGS.
Cancer is a cruel thing...it tears families apart,and it grips you with fear knowing that your body has somehow unknowingly turned against you.Its tragic,the treatment costs are expensive..and yet,there is no guarantee that you'll recover.When you've studied the different cancers,DNA mutation and how cancer comes about...its heartwrenching to see the real thing right in front of you.The blatant reality,people are dying.
Uncle Tian Lye,he was well-loved by everyone.He was always cheerful and stayed faithful to God all the while.He was always helpful...one of the leaders in our church.Throughout his battle with cancer for 6 years(in fact,I don't even remember seeing him with hair),he was never embittered and lived life to the fullest.I didn't know him personally,but I saw the blessings he brings in the church..and he was a great family man.At the wake,practically 3/4s of the church came.Uncle Tian Lye was an inspiration to many,and continually encouraged others.We all know that he's free from pain right now,and we'll all see him again one day.I remember what Aunt Nina said on the way to the wake.."I only regret that I didn't manage to buy his popiah for him..."
Ms Goh,she never taught me chemistry in secondary school.But she did teach me during the study camp and stuff..she was an interesting woman.She was a good chem teacher.Many students didn't really like her...But I was strangely drawn by compassion to her becoz she reminded me of my grandmother(for those who actually knew my relationship with my grandmother).It wasn't pity,it wasn't resentment..but it was a strange understanding towards her.Some students were cruel,but it was becoz they never truly understood.
Life is never easy,and life almost always is not for us to choose.
These 3 incidents made me think about my own funeral,although its not my time to go home just yet.My purpose in life has yet to be fufilled...When my time comes,do not stand around and cry...I never died.Becoz I died to myself 3 years ago when I made a commitment to change.He is no fool to give up what he cannot keep,in return for something that he cannot lose.

organic chem

2006-08-06T20:40:00.000-07:00

..It totally sucks.Nah,actually it doesn't.I think its a very interesting and facinating module...its just that no matter how hard I try,and I can't grasp the concept of it.The poly exams are coming!Tmr's my organic chem practical exam...bleh.Usually practicals are fairly easy coz you follow the instructions on the lab manual,record observations and you've got a partner to work with.Exams,well..you work individually(duh)...and the teacher hinted that we'll be tested on our theory based work,all the reactions and different detection tests..Argh!
If you're wondering then,WHY isn't Dawn mugging away feverishly like she always does?Haha,she's going crazy coz she's done so the whole day already....juz wanted to take a break and regurgitate all the pentup nerves inside,before she goes back to studying(and accumulate some more).ARGH....study,study,study...
Stuff has happened the past week...but can't pen it down coz it'll take too long.Tmr'll come and go soon enough...>.
Soon..everything will come to an end.The question is,how long to I have to keep holding on?

Biobrain challenge pics!

2006-08-03T00:30:00.000-07:00

Like I said in my earlier post...our class had to help out in one secondary school bio competition...I facilitated one of the ACS(i) groups.they tagged on my tagboard!Haha,how they managed to locate my blog..I have no idea.Since we were representing NP,our class(along with afew others) got to wear the NP blazer!Which is nice!25th July,the bio brain challenge..as well as my birthday.I was feeling very upset that I couldn't go for my school's founder's day...especially this year's,when all of the previous year's graduates return back to MG for a ceremony.I couldn't come back becoz had presentation in the morning...and wasn't free the rest of the day either.And yeah,for a person who's dreamt of coming back to MG for the founder's da ceremony..I felt as if something as been quickly snatched away from me.But ah wells..It was especially bittersweet day for me,becoz instead of coming back to MG(and donning some JC blazer)...I had to stay in NP instead(wearing the NP blazer!).But hey,I spent the day with friends..=) Its time I make new memories.MG and everything that came with it will always be in my heart..but its time to move on.Thanks everybody,for remembering my birthday!

Beesim,Huixian,Lifang and I...don't we look so super smart?Hahaha..

Vanessa,Serene,Shuan and I!

Eileen,Vanessa,Beesim,Serene and I!

Vanessa,Serene and I(haha,for those who haven't seen me in a long time...do you spot the blue streaks?Its not very obvious under this lighting..but I've got 5 streaks of luminous blue in my hair now...haha.)

Rees and I

Hahahahaa..classic pose for photos,PEACE!

Shaun and I

Hahaha,yeps...our class is a bunch of narcissistic people.All the teachers noticed that we were the only class who took a ridiculously lare amount of photos.But hey,we love photos!Lols...this was taken outside one of the lecture theatre.Trying to act cool...but seriously,don't we look nice?=D

Interesting hazy effect,and interesting arrangment.Haha,I love Lifang's heels!!!!

We all look SO good in this pic!Lols,smartlooking enough to pass of as students from school of business...but of coz,none of us will wanna do that=D...Hahaha..Lifang is in the picture,juz that Shaun's body completely blocked her ou of view!(haha,so super suay!)

Mark took me out to eat after that...Here's a pic taken at the National Library!

Happy 17th to ME!

2006-08-01T22:00:00.000-07:00

I feel so loved...On sunday after church Abby and the others gave me my birthday present!^_^And the cre-ature group took the time to have lunch down a Holland V with me!Ate at Subway,love it!Halfway through while we were talking,Jaime go up to go to the toilet...and surprisesurpise,came back with a cake instead!From NYDC^_^Apparently they were all in it together...Was so touched,they're so sweet!Thanks guys,really appreciate it!
Tuesday went out with Mark to eat at this cool italian restuarant at bugis...They served really good pasta!When they served our desserts,in my half-blindness(broke my glasses afew days ago and was half blind) I saw a lit birthday candle on it(brownie with a scoop of ice cream)!It was really thoughtful..and I was so touched!
On wednesday Lijun,Shuhua,Van,Serene,Beesim and I went to Heeren to take neoprints!We initially wanted to have the sushi buffet at one sushi restuarant,but it wasn' available at that outlet.Shuhua insisted that since it was my birthday,we should eat at somewhere special and out of the ordinary.Haha,but there wasn't much choice in Heeren,so we walked down to Cineleisure to look for makan places.By time we reached Cineleisure,Lijun was babbling away in hunger..."I don't care I juz wanna eatttt!!!".So we settled for this HK cafe/restuarant...it was alittle pricey,but a refreshing change to what I usually eat.All of us had baked rice,which seemed ironical considering it was a HK restuarant.It was some supposed famous macau receipe.It was alittle drier as compared to the thicky and creamy baked rice in Swensons'...bt I thought it wasn't too bad.Serene,Shuhua and Lijn ordered timsum...I tried abit,its nice!Lijun's face practically lit up when the food was served.She has a big appetite...on par with Van!Hahaha,this Vanessa...eats so much but still stays so skinny.=)
Friday,went out with the ninjado pple(Jingquan,Derrick,William,Victor,Kangru,Beesim,Jeremiah and Joyce) for dinner!we were initally planning to watch a movie(some tiger dragon door or wadeva its called) but tickets were sold out.We were riding in JingQuan's lorry...Since I was wearing a skirt,I couldn't sit at the back=(.But haha I was ever thankful that I was sitting in front becoz while driving,it started RAINING..heavily.JQ had to hurriedly drop them off a bus stop,and they had to take a bus to PS.Subway was too crowded...so we bought takeaways and JQ drove us to the Kallang river to eat.It was really cool coz I've never been there..and it seemed so peaceful coz it was faraway from the city area,away from the traffic and insane crowds of pple.The bridge was so nice,and the stadium had lights that transist slowly into different colours after afew seconds...it so pretty!By the river we also spotted a pair of horse shoe crabs mating.JQ told us that its a prehistoric creature...I don't know how accurate he is,but it certainly looked alot like the creatures in the water during the dinosaur times.^_^
So fun...went out practically everyday during my birthday week...Now its time to settle down for serious studying=)
Oooh,on tuesday our class helped out in the secondary school Biobrain challenge...and we had to wear the NP blazer and stuff.We took soooo many photos...I'll be uploading them soon^_^

The Rose-Bette Midler

2006-07-22T00:30:00.000-07:00

Some say love it is a river that drowns the tender reed

Some say love it is a razer that leaves your soul to blead

Some say love it is a hunger an endless aching need

I say love it is a flower and you it's only seed

It's the heart afraid of breaking that never learns to dance

It's the dream afraid of wakingthat never takes the chance

It's the one who won't be taken who cannot seem to give and the soul afraid of dyingthat never learns to live

When the night has been too lonely

and the road has been too long

and you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong

Just remember in the winterfar beneath the bitter snows lies the seed

that with the sun's love in the spring becomes the rose

Sumairu Shopping!

2006-07-19T23:45:00.000-07:00

Today was one of the very rare times that I'm actually free.So wad do you do when you're suddenly temporarily cleared of the endless projects and presentations?SHOPPING!!!!Haha,or at least that's what Van,Eileen and I did.After ending our organic chem extra lesson at 6pm(Lols,Mark crashed our lesson..Ms Teh definately noticed as she was giving him odd glances.Plus,being decked out in all black formal wear coz of some accountancy presentation..He didn't excatly blend in=D)...we headed down to Dhoby Ghaut MRT station's newly opened shops.Its like a mini shopping mall inside an MRT(think its called Dhoby X-change)!
Vanessa brought us to this really cool shop which sells gothic,punk and victorian-ish apparel and accessories.The name's Sumairu and its so cool!Check out their website...www.sumairusingapore.blogspot.com. I love the designs there..but its so expensive!One skirt would cost about $90+,but I love the design!Its gothic,which chains and intricate patterns...sighs,perhaps I shall wait till a sale comes or something.I bought a victorian like moss green shirt/jacket for $10 there,the one similiar to Van's..It was initially about $18,but the boss was extremely nice!Also got a leather bracelet(with those metal and chains) for $20.Vanessa and Eileen both bought accessories from there too...=) if you like the goth,punk or victorian look...you REALLY MUST visit this shop.Oh,and be sure to have a fat bank account as well...but hey,its a price you have to pay for the unique..The accessories are SOOO nice!

sulphuric acid and stupidity

2006-07-19T01:30:00.000-07:00

Concentrated sulphuric acid is something not to be messed with,haha..I found out first hand yesterday during chemistry lab practical.I stayed up late the previous night(went to watch Just My Luck with Mark.Its a NICE show..I don't care how many pple say that its a stupid show.I still like Lindsey Lohan,Mcfly is COOL and the actor in the show is hot.Haha..And its FUNNY.).And when I came back,I stayed up later in the night(can't remember what I did..projects?Dunno...).Soooo,I woke up late on Monday.Had organic chem practical at 8am,and I woke up at...7am.Despite being extremely tired,I sprang on of bed...bathed and got dressed and ran down downstairs to catch the 52 bus.Thankfully,I was still able to reach the lab on time to finish up my pre-lab questions(phew,they carry a very tiny portion of marks towards my final grade..and yes,for organic chem I need all the marks I can get.)
In the beginning of the experiment,I was in a sleepy daze.Put on labcoat and gloves,read the lab manual instructions and followed the steps(Monday's organic chem experiment was on testingof carbohydrates and fats(with the Molisch,Fehling's test...etc.)
I robotically added concentrated sulphuric acid into the test tubes containing differnt carbohydrates and Molisch's reagent.After placing the test tubes in the stand,my nose was itchy!Unthinkingly,I reached up(with my gloved hands!) and scratched it.In my sleepiness it did not occur to me that my gloves could have traces of acid present,nor that the gloves were worn at each practical session for a reason.Immediately,I felt this hot burning sensation near the top of my lips.In Dawn's zombie like state,she blinked abit and then,it suddenly hit her...oh ****!I raced to the sink,peeled off my gloves and frantically started washing my mouth area with water.When I stopped,I could still feel the stinging..as if the acid was still inside slowly corroding my skin>.<.
The TSO looked questioningly at me,"what happened?"
"Accidently got acid onto my skin"*gesturing my now-blistering upper lip*
Her eyes widened,"WHICH ONE?"
"Erm,the conc. sulphuric acid..."
The TSO honestly looked as if she was going to freak out as she scrambled to find a neutralising solution while informing my lab teacher about it.They couldn't find any solution,so they used the eyewash instead.Eyewash was meant to wash out acid if it ever got into the eyes(ouch!!!),so it was still usable for my face I suppose.Later antiseptic cream was applied onto the little blister the acid caused.Thankfully,the accident wasn't a serious one...and the affected area is just a small are near my lips(thank God!).Which will probably heal soon...I hope.
Besides it stinging for the rest of the day,and the tightness of skin I feel today...its not that obvious.Haha,although many pple have asked me about it...snffsniff,some think its a pimple!Whenever I rub against it or bathe,the blister will reopen and start oozing out fluid...argh>.<.How grossly inconvient.It still stings abit,but ahh..that doesn't matter.
Just by having this little irritant its reminded me of those who's suffered worse acid burns than me.This little blister stings and starts oozing stuff whenever I brush too hard against it or bathe,which is irritatingly inconvient.The reddish tinge is noticeable,and sooo man people have asked me what happened to my lip that I'm getting increasingly selfconcious about the blistering skin.Pimple?Oh gosh,I HARDLY ever GET pimples!>.
Hmm,those pple who suffer more serious acid burns must have real courage...
secreting fluid and soreness everywhere is no joke...

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Today at the atrium someone called my name...and guess who I saw?Alexis!!Turns out she went to mass comm,like she intended to before.Haha,wows...its cool to see all the pple you known since primary and secondary school days show up in the same poly as you...Jiaen(Business Studies),Rachel(Acountancy),YunZhen(Business Studies),Weixin(Biotech),Raeywn(Mass Comm),Daphne(Mass Comm)...etc.etc.its juz amazing to see how much we grown...

rambling thoughts

2006-07-15T03:50:00.000-07:00

Once again,I would like to clarify to all you ignorant people out there...POLY LIFE IS NOT EASIER THAN JC!I've been up till 3am doing projects for the past weeks.Phff...in addition to cca and work,I'm exhuasted.Ive been INSANELY BUSY!Thankfully,I've cleared most of it this week...so I'm only left with,err...come to think of it,lt's not try to count(its still quite a number).Haha,it startles me to see the stark contrast of tertiary education and secondary/JCs...I honestly love projects and presentations,but having one for every single module and numerous presentations..it really gets super SCARY!
Argh,I don't know if its my laptop or MSN messenger...but the stoooopid live messenger's not working!!!!So inconvient...argh,MSN is a must!Its a form of communication...and I use it for my project work!!!Ahhhhhh...
I'm not doing well in school>.<...It really sucks,I love my course...I like modules I take.But no matter how hard I try,I can never be good enough.But as much as I like it,I don't want to stay here longer than I should!I don't want to retake the modules I failed,or retake the year...But right now as time passes,I feel my dreams slipping right through my fingers even though I'm trying so hard to catch hold of them.I wish I could juz see what lies ahead of me,maybe this path was never meant for me.I don't know,and the voice seems ever so silent.
I'm quitting Haagen Daz,by the end of next week.Haven't got time for anything esle!I've been rushing about like a robotic fool,not having the time to sit down and think...let alone sleep.I don't know why I've suddenly became so bound with various commitments...but ah well,gotta make a sacrifice or sooner or later I'll lose my sanity.Don't call me weak,that is one thing I am not..But I'm crushing under the tonnage of my world,its juz overwhelming...
How fragile life is....and how slowly you slipped away.You're sorely missed by loved ones and friends,but we'll see you again.I know you've found your peace and comfort at last...I only wish I could be as strong as you..
He/she is no fool to give up something he/she cannot keep,in return for something that can never be lost.
Ahh,I miss my exclassmates and frens in MG!!I miss those times with the wonderful pple I knew but lost contact of,or don't see often anymore.Whenever I bump into Shawn in NP I wonder how May's doing.I remember our art lessons!How many of us actually used our artistic skills to pave the way of our future?Or was I the only one that left the world I knew well behind in pursuit of science?Whenever I look at the neoprint that Ria,Deb and I took,I wish I could juz see them again.I wonder how everybody's doing right now...
As my classmates were talking about their boyfriends/girlfriends..I suddenly felt this acute loneliness.I never used to bother about it,in fact I couldn't care less(independence!).But that day I realised how stubborn my heart was..its been so long,and I'm still pineing away for that particular person.Actually pineing isn't excatly the word I'd use,I KNOW very well that the sky has a better chance of turning green and crashing down than anything ever happening.So I never expected anything.Can you imagine?Having your heart so caught up with something that nothing esle matters?To change a life so much simply by your presence,and you didn't know the extent of it?I guess you never how much...
Oh well,thats in the past...
Ah what the heck,I don't care.

*disclaimer:Dawn's thoughts were beginning to clog up her mind.Thus,one paragraph has no particular connection to the other.They are not insights or interesting observations,but mere ramblings of a dreamer drowning in her thoughts.

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2006-07-04T11:41:00.000-07:00

11pm,the news came.
A hour ago,I was in KAP.
I had finished ninjado.
Heavy hearted but still unaware.
A life slowly slipped away.
Within moments,the lives of those I knew changed.
Lives that I know will never be the same again.
The lives you've blessed and touched.
The lives I know of.
Its numbing,and it seems so surreal.
I know you've found peace once again,
and God knows why He's taken away.
I'll see you again one day..
Tell me,how far is heaven?

metamorphasis

2006-06-30T23:53:00.000-07:00

Last Sat was our YM's mission In Him possible event!Oh before I forget,I really enjoyed working and planning with you guys!Especially my fellow emcee,Daniel Woon!Haha,although we had quite a number of differences in opinion..I enjoyed working with you WoonD!Pastor Glenn Lim came to share his testimony and the video he made about his life.Whenever I hear his testimony,I'm reminded of my own.Perhaps not as dramatic or lifechanging as his..but complicated weave of tapestry of my own.Ashley's shared his testimony on his blog..and now's my turn..=)
I was born into a christian family..juz that I was never truly one until Sec 2.Christianity is not so much of a religion,but a lifestyle and a relationship.Being an innocently naive child,I accepted Christ at a tender age of 9.But of coz,nothing changed...as a child I did not know how it was to live as a christian.I didn't have much of childhood either...I hardly ever saw my parents as they were busy working.I saw their lives take a downward spiral of financial debts,and the pressure they gave me to do well in school(haha,I must admit,I was a problem child in school..).They loved me,I knew that..But they didn't know how to show it.I was fostered to my grandmother during my childhood years coz they were never at home to take care of me.She was a troubled woman,embittered by her past.Perhaps she did love me...But sadly,she didn't know how to show it.Those years were stormy,as I learnt from a young age that life isn't all that beautiful...it was cruel,life was a bitch.I was emotionally and physically bruised..and I grew up with a mentality of independence and refusal to fully trust anyone.I was embittered as well...and I never expected much in life.But no matter how much I wanted to be emotionless and cold,deep down was a longing to be accepted and loved.Its the same for everyone,no matter how much we try to block it out..Its naturally instilled in us to want to be loved and accepted.No man is an island on its own..and it sucked.
I was never smart nor talented in school.Perhaps,I could draw..but that gift was never fully cultivated coz my parents didn't approve of it.I'm not that good at it anyways.I could write well,but it was my inferior complex that prevented myself from striving to work hard.In primary school,I was struggling to keep my head above the deep waters(oh yes,I'm terrible at math and chinese).As I got older,I was so filled with disgust and hate with myself.11-13 were turbulent years,and channeled my pain and inferiorities onto myself.Physical pain would temporarily distract me from the pain embedded so deeply inside..Depriving myself of food so much to the extent that my body started rejecting food whenever I ate a certain amount.In addition to mixing with some people..my life was heading downhill and I knew it.But hey,I was too angsty a person to care.I let a double life...hardly anybody knew of what I was going through,but my close friends did see a change in attitude although I tried to cover it up.
At 14,when I heard a testimony of someone...something touched me deep inside.It was something about that character,the behaviour and the life.Having personal struggles and yet,so different from the way I was.I was so blinded in selfish bitterness and pain that I've failed to realise the stories other people had.I didn't want to live the way I lived anymore,I was striving to be free...and yet,I so chained up within myself.An interest to find this God that I've abandoned so long ago was sparked off.I wanted to find peace and love within myself once again.I searched and got changed by His grace and love.To love a person as useless and far-off as me?Changing wasn't easy...my attitude as well as my language.Reverting my attitude to become like Christ and ommiting unedifying words and vulgarities wasn't easy...especially for a person whose every sentence contained vulgarities.And it took many years before it really stopped.
Throughout the years,I've grown and learnt more and more how it is to live as God wants me to.Many times God has shown me how it was to forgive,and love unconditionally,and to trust in the One that will never fail.My journey hasn't ended yet..and I'm still a masterpiece under construction.Even as I look back in the years which I lived my own way...I can see the hands of God subtly moving.How he's placed people specifically in my lives..The uncanny timing of my 180degree change of heart.Afew years later I would have left the church.How many people who scored 200 for their PSLE manage to get into an express stream?I was placed in MG for a reason.In my secondary school years,I lived through scrape after scrape(man,I sound like a cockroach)...Can you imagine given the prospect to be retained in Sec 1 and later,Sec 3?And managing to slip past both and still completing secondary school education within 4 years?He's done that for a reason.How izit possible that a person's grades in Olevels as compared to prelims is 1/3?I've heard of stories how a student's Olevel results would be half of wad he/she obtained during the prelims.How about dividing it by 3?Highly unlikely,but God did it.I don't know for sure where I'm heading or what lies ahead of me...But I know the one who does.=)
Every hurt and pain,every dark thought and distressing situation that has been thrown to me in all my 17 years..Satan meant it for evil.But God intended it for good.It was all for a life renewed.

Forwarded email

2006-06-28T12:43:00.000-07:00

Here's an email Amalina forwarded to some of us in the class...Just a little nugget to think about.Its so super soppy..but hey,don't we all wish for such a person?Its naturally instilled in each human being to want to be loved and accepted..

SOME OF THE BEST THINGS IN LIFE ARE FOR FREE"

Find a guy, who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her."

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DIANA!

2006-06-28T00:33:00.000-07:00

Don't worry about that extra line
That's creeping up upon your face
It's just a part of nature's way to say you've grown a little more
Trees have rings and thicker branches
Kids shoes get a little tighter
Every year we're getting closer to who we're gonna be
It's time to celebrate the story of how you've come to be

Happy Birthday, my friend
Here's to all the years we've shared together
All the fun we've had
You're such a blessing
Such a joy in my life
May the good Lord bless you
And may all your dreams come true

So light a candle on your cake
For every smile you've helped create
For every heart and every soul
You've helped to grow a little more
A few more pounds, a little more grey
Dont count the years, just count the way
It takes a little time to go from water into wine
Dont ever lose the wonder of that child within your eyes
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I know its alittle late but...happy 17th birthday my dear friend!Its been like...8years+?I've known you for half my life already and thanks for all the joy,laughter and love you brought into my life!Haha..I still remember the days when we were kids and I'll treasure all the years I've known you^_^ Cheers!

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2006-06-23T02:29:00.000-07:00

My life's a mess,i'm drowning
I sometimes wonder..
Was my choices a pathetic attempt
to be part of a world I'd never be in.
Why?I don't know.
Why..izit that no matter how hard I try
I can never make it.
God,I need You.
My gift of wisdom?
Is it really meant for me?
Why do the wise make mistakes?
Giftings of mercy?
I wish...that I could take away
All the pains of people.
But I can't.Its impossible.
And yet I refuse
to let love in...
Why...can't I forget?
Exhortation and intercession..
Sometimes I don't know
if my strive for personal achievement
Is driving myself away
from the things You want for me.
A person,so inadequate.
So clogged up with baggage.
Who am I?That You see me?
Even when I forgot You,
You still saw me.
Help me O Lord,
I need You just as always..
You are my hiding place,
and I'm back...

whee!more photos!

2006-06-22T17:54:00.000-07:00

"We're on a bus,we're on a journey..to Port Dickson,with no money!!!"Lols,Shern made up this song while we were in the bus heading for Port Dickson,Malaysia...super cool,she can make songs up impromtu!
Eh Daniel!Smile lah!
Benjamin and I(oyy,Linus!So extra..haha)
Smile Linus!

Smile Diana!(one of my bestest and longtime fren!)
Food!!We had lunch at Jonker's Street...Famousa's chicken rice balls are nice.I loved the fish otak!!

Yuming,Chanel and I
Last day of the church camp!Lols,that's Kevin pushing the trolley with Rudy on it.Shernise's camera is SUPER clear compared to mine...Mine's an old,lousy camera that takes blurry photos..

She's the man!

2006-06-15T15:58:00.000-07:00

Went to watch She's The Man with Woeixi and Mark at Cineleisure yesterday...Haha,it was hilarious!Too bad the others couldn't come.Although its a chickflick...it worth the money coz its sidesplittingly funny.Its rather like a modernized version of Mulan.Viola,the main character(Amanda Bynes)..wants to play in a all-boys soccer team in order to prove that she was good enough.So,she disguises herself as a guy and using her brother's name..and enters school under the disguise of a transfer student.Although its extremely unrealistic...Its a sweet romantic comedy,so you squeal,cry AND laugh at the same time!Haha,I like romantic comedies!

2006-06-15T13:32:00.000-07:00

Lols,here's a forwarded email I received from Donald...Its funny!I'm an isotope of atomic mass-43kg!Element-WO.
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NEW ELEMENT IN THE PERIODIC TABLE
Element : WOMEN
Symbol : WO
Atomic mass : Accepted as 53.6 Kg; isotopes may vary from 40-200kg.
Occurrence : Copious quantities in all urban areas
*PHYSICAL PROPERTIES
1. Boils at room temperature
2. Freezes without any known reason
3. Melts if given special treatment
4. Bitter, if incorrectly used
5. Sweet as Honey if given a proper treatment
*CHEMICAL PROPERTIES
1. Have great affinity for Gold, Silver and a range of precious stones and absorbs great quantities of expensive substances.
2. May explode spontaneously without prior warning and for no known reason.
3. Insoluble in liquids, but activity greatly increases by that.
4. Most powerful money reducing agent known to man.
*COMMON USES*
1. Highly ornamental, especially in sports cars.
2. Can be great aid to relaxation.
*TESTS*
1. Pure specimen turns rosy pink when happy.
2. Turns green when placed behind a better specimen.
*POTENTIAL HAZARD*
illegal to possess more than one, although several can be maintained at different locations as long as specimens do not come in direct contact with each other.
WARNING !!*
PROLONGED EXPOSURE TO THIS ELEMENT CAN CAUSE SEVERE FINANCIAL HEMORRHAGING AND MENTAL DISTRESS.

Camp photos!

2006-06-15T01:40:00.000-07:00

Say..CHEESE!That's Beverly!Haha,things we do when there's nothing to do on the bus.As we set off for Port Dickson,Malaysia...we were super high!Thus,the large amount of photos..
Woeixi and I
Kelwin spent most of the time sleeping.Not sure if it was becoz he wasn't feeling well or if he hasn't gotten much sleep for the past few days.Lols,the other guys started disturbing him..Gabriel pretended to stick a finger up Kelwin's nose..haha,and I got a pic of that!
Annabel and I
"More than words"..Ahh,Yuliang whipped out his guitar and started singing!He's got such a nice clear tenor voice!
Ok,a mess up in sequence here...At glory beach I managed to catch a sunset!Ahh,God's creations are beautiful...haven't really gotten the time to admire sunsets for a very long time,been wayyy to busy.That's why this camp was so good..it was more a retreat.It allowed me to sit back and survey God's handiwork.I may be able to paint pictures,but its God that paints the sunsets...

Aaron and I at Glory beach resort.

Haha,back to the bus ride photos.That's Shernise and I!
See the chicken rice balls?Aren't they cute?Looks like fishballs don't they?I loved the fish otak...It was fabulous!The chilli they serve there is really good too..
Sniffsniff...Daniel,Aaron and the other guys behind conspired to mess up my hair juz when the photo was taken.Thus...the end result,.."Arghhh!!Don't touch my hairrrrrrr!!!"Lols,my no.1 pet peeve,people touching my hair..
1989 babies!Known these guys since young...Andrew,Joel and I.Especially Joel,probably been with him since..kindergarden years?Now we're leading a cell group of our own..amazing how much we all grew over the years..
Yuliang,Daniel,Ashley and Benjamin on top.
After dinner we saw a couple of guys practicing juggling sticks with fire at the ends.Daniel convinced them to do firebreathing for us..and got a shot for me!Its so cool..and even cooler watching it upclose.
Haha,I'm the only one in black!That's gilbert(taupok!),jaime,diana and I...
It was a common routine throughout the camp..as we were given lots of free time at nights.Head down to resort's pub and watch...THE FOOTBALL FIFA WORLD CUP!Then when the match finishes..head up to walter and gang's apartment and play BANG! and Steward(courtesy of the twins) till early hours in the morning...
There was a pair of giant dragon fishes in a pond near the playground.It was HUGE!The body's bigger than my waist and its about the same height as me!Scary,and at the same time..super cool!How did they ever breed a dragonfish that big?It looked super sad though...trapped in the pond.They had to put wires over the pond to prevent any innocent people from getting their fingers bitten off.Apparently dragon fish eat meat,have 2 sets of teeth..and are fairly aggressive creatures..in addition to its size..I wouldn't want my hand anywhere near that creature...
Aaron,Yuming and I
I wanna be a child again..Whee!Haha,Aaron looks..alittle overgrown for the swing.The swing was hung low,suited for little toddlers...
Taking alittle before-lunch nap.All of us didn't get much sleep on the last night...Haha..

The camp was great...I was happy that they slotted in so much free time.Really had the time to catch up with my frens and spend time with God.It was really a bluesky holiday that I wanted..and I purposely left my handphone at home(sorry jeremiah,didn't pick up your calls!) so I could have a real retreat.Attended 2 of the 3 workshops conducted..One was about spiritual gifts by Pastor Bernard and the another about caring and counselling by Pastor B's wife,Aijun...Both were useful and interesting..And I really had a great time at camp.I played volleyball and went swimming,walked along the beach with my bestest fren(diana),shopped and ate at Jonker's street and spent time with God and in silent reflection.Its really the hands of God that fixed the camp excatly on the day my school holidays start.Thank You Lord for all You've done!

byebye glory beach resort!
Taken on the last day,at the swimming pool!I love these kinds of landscaping on pools.

oh wow

2006-06-06T22:40:00.000-07:00

Haha,juz had an msn conversation with Joel(biotech in NP)...Both of us aren't attach at the moment,and Joel was feeling alittle low..so in effort to cheer him up...
"Don't worry Joel..you'll find the special person eventually.And although it might take some time,once you've found her...it doesn't matter how long it took or how many pple you've went through..coz it'll be worth it."
haha...*stunned*,since when did I get sooo...eloquently mature about such topics...-_-

...

2006-06-05T21:46:00.000-07:00

Smile,even though your heart is breaking.

Its alright,I'm ok...

God has another plan for me....

baptism pics

2006-05-27T00:32:00.000-07:00

This was last week's photos...When we all finished baptism class one night and went for supper at Al-Almeen(eh,can't really remember the name)..This place opp Beauty World,upper Bukit Timah Rd which is really popular for its prata!Haha,that's Abby(Abraham) and I in the picture...hungry and bored pple do funny things!Ehh?Wad's Kelvin doing?Haha...
I think,he was trying to take photos of people eating.Ehh,like I said...Hungry and bored pple do funny things....
This pic was taken in Debbie's car!After baptism class,she drove to pick Shernise up from her house..so we could all go eat prata together.Ahaha..Ben,JunMing and Abby are in the background..geez!And they seem to be spoiling my picture with Shern..lol.Juz joking guys!
This was last Sunday,when we get baptised...Uncle Michael Khor welcoming each of us into the family of God..
Ahh..our baptism batch was abit special coz it was celebrated together with our church's anniversary...we got baptised by the Bishop of the Methodist Church of Singapore.

Yay,Shernise passed me the pictures taken after baptism class and during the baptism itself..Its been a week since I got baptised.What has changed?Nothing much,I still got along my daily life...But that sunday served as a reminder of my commitment to Christ.I did not get baptised simply because for the sake of it..The call for baptism was there since last year,but I hesitated.Until early this year God used a six month long life lesson to teach me the true meaning of unconditional love and forgiveness,the love that only God gives to those who earnestly seek for it.Its not easy loving people like Jesus did..being continuously stabbed in the back and kicked when He was down.After I learnt the long painful lesson...the call for baptism was stronger than ever.This baptism is a symbol of the burying of my old self...The old Dawn is dead and gone,and the celebration of the new me.Its time I walk away from my past once and for all.For me its been closure and at the same time,opening a new chapter in the story of my life.I'm God's creation now...can you imagine?The rejoicing of angels in the heavens when all of us were baptised...

2006-05-24T23:34:00.000-07:00

Its been 5 weeks since I started school in NP...
Haha,its been fun..found myself a bunch of great frens.Especially close to Beesim,coz she was in my orientation group...and later,in my class as well.She's one of the sweetest pple I know rite now..Didn't manage to spend much time with her today,coz my TLS project group had to finish up the project..and after school I went to study with Rees,Shehnas,Aisyah and Amalina.After the oh so hard organic and biological chemistry test today(How I HATE chem!!I think its interesting...But Chem and I juz DON'T CLICK).Shehnas,Rees and I headed down for the bus stop..Haha,perhaps due to the overexhuastion of the brain after the chem test,staying up late the night before to our TLS project,skipping lunch break to finish up the powerpoint slides...something in our brains,snapped.We started laughing really hard at the slightest thing.But haha,Shehnas and Rees are really nice people to hang out with.On the bus ride home,Beesim called...
"Dawn,where are you?"
"On the way home with Rees and Shehnas..why?Eileen said that you were looking for me.."
"Oh nothing la...I miss you!"
Aww...isn't that sweet?I seriously haven't came across a person who misses me after half a day apart.
Wahh...whom ever said poly was slacker than JC??!!The person ought to be shot....and whom ever said that year 1 was SLACK??!!That one's probably a big slacker...Coz with school,ccas,projects,homework,work,other commitments...you CANNOT say that poly is slack!Ever since school started I can not came home until 10.30pm at the earliest...and I'd only be able to sleep at 1pm(that is,if I'm lucky) coz of projects,tutorials..etc.Poly will only be slack if you do not have a cca,are jobless and if you're the kind of person who totally doesn't care about projects and isolates yourself from the rest.Poly,to some extent is busier than JC...have you ever had a project for EVERY SINGLE SUBJECT?And to make matters worse...all due within the same week?In some projects,with group members of different faculty and different timetables as you?
Needtheless to say..I'm veryveryvery busy...and how I long to be transported back to the time span when I was having my very long holiday break(while everybody was in school!),when it was juz work,home and church.Simple...and nothing esle mattered.But I never regreted going to poly...its interesting,and I get to study a specialised course..Although they literally throw you into deep dark waters and make you paddle on your own for projects...you learn more that way.
Haha,as you can see from the lack of my usual deep/poetic/open to interpretation prose and poems...I AM very busy...Sad,but oh well...that's the life goes on...
Yayy!!Guanhao gave me the link to Bohemian Rasphody(mind my spelling?) on YouTube...I LOVE that song!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6oTG_RKzwvA&search=bohemian%20rhapsody%20queen

2006-05-20T22:45:00.000-07:00

Serene,Vanessa,Eileen,Lijun and me!
Love this pic...its cool!Its a pic taken the girl's toilet of the covention centre...after our organic chem lecture.Lol,this proves that an overload of the wonderful world of organic and biological chemistry can result in temporary insanity and cause an unexplainable urge to take cutesy pictures in the oddest places!Taking photos in the toilet is weird enough...but in addition,in front of the full length mirror too!Haha...but the slanted angle of the pic looks so funky.

Choking over a big slice of life

2006-05-19T23:30:00.000-07:00

A MSN conversation with Gabriel got me thinking...
"Hey,how are you doing?''-Dying from exhuastion,thank you.
"Been growing spirtually?-Hmmmmmz...
Seems that I've bitten off more than I can chew..and starting to feel very tired from all the chewing(I'm perpetually tired all the time!) and starting to choke over the tonnage I intended to swallow.Perhaps some pple might be able too...But I realised that I simply cannot juggle my studies,projects,work and at the same time go for prayer meetings(I'm the prayer ministry),attend YM,hold a PCG as well as attend one...and in addition,join campus crusade along with ninjado,which is already twice a week.Sadly,think I won't be able to join crusade afterall..argh,feel so bad coz I agreed to attend the discipleship cell groups conducted by crusade.Oh wellz...-_-Gotta go catch some ZZzs,tomorrow's another day filled with projects and classes!Got baptism class tomorrow nite too...coz I'm getting baptised on Sunday!

Shopping at PS!

2006-05-18T00:53:00.000-07:00

Yay!I got my shopping trip!On tuesday,after our class was done with summarizing our medical journals for TLS project...Vanessa,Jeremiah and I went to Plaza Singapura!Van needed to use up the 20dollar voucher she had for PS,which expires on tuesday.Poked into many different shops..including Vanessa's often frequented Pure Milk(lol,she wanted to buy this purple tshirt..But was afraid we called her a walking purple prune again!) and some mickey mouse shop.Lol,Vanessa has a natural attachment to purple juz like I do to black.Our dear walking purple prune!haha..
Jeremiah got bored of our girlish whims and fancies half way through...and decided to go do shopping by himself,haha.
I decided to buy this warm brown flared skirt from this shop called Ooo..baby!(interesting name,haha)..$15.Vanessa and I got the same tshirt from this shop called L.P.Zone(I think)..It was two for $22.The grafitti print on the tee is really cool..which the wordings,"Beyond your imagination" and "garden in the sky"..sounds so surreal.And its $11!Van got a pair of shorts from L.PZone too...
Saw this cute little pink pleated skirt in Giordano...but alas,its under kid's size!Haha...sadly I don't think the largest kid's size would even fit me.I've got hips with the measurement of 31inches,which is rather wide for a person my height.And waistline of 22inches!Although,I've probably grown fatter>.<...SIM megabites food is super good!Its like a hotspot amongst the LSCT faculty coz its so near by and its airconditioned!The fish and chips,chicken chop and pasta is really good!The chicken rice is really economical for such a place...$2.00!
Left PS to meet my family for dinner at about 7pm...Was so tempted to buy somemore books at the KING's booksale at Thomson plaza...But oh well,I SHALL NOT BUY BOOKS TILL I'VE READ THOSE THAT I'VE ALREADY BOUGHT...
Sighz,I'm a self confessed bookworm..

spats of bimboti-ism

2006-05-15T23:44:00.000-07:00

ok,this is an utterly bimbotic and redundant post but...
I WANNA GO SHOPPING!I seriously miss retail therapy,I miss strolling down the overly crowded streets of Orchard Road(which is amazing as I usually detest walking through crowded areas) and I miss prowling through shops!Haha,ever since I've started poly I've realised that I don't have enough clothes...been wearing the same clothes(and shoes) all the time...
Eileen,Beesim,Serene and I wanna go shopping one day after school...but there'll always be something that'll pop up after school.This week's super busy for me...school,work,projects,cca and baptism classes...really packed for the week.Hopefully..it'll subside next week.Since I'm in the prayer ministry...I'm supposed to go for the prayer meetings,but I can't make it this week!Bleh,feel so guilty...Evelyn,I'm so sorry!I'll try to make it next week...I'll make time for it!

Class photos

2006-05-12T22:44:00.000-07:00

Biomedical tends to have lesser guys than girls as compared to the other life science courses..even Biotech has more guys!Haha,our class has a grand total of 13 girls and 5 guys..And in the pic on top,is a photo of the girls in our class,1M06.
Here's our class!Starting from the bottom,left to right:Changyuan,Shuan,MingJian,Rees and Guanhao.
Middle row:
Aisyah,Amalina,Eileen,Vanessa,Beesim,me,Shehnas.
Last row:Weiting,Lifeng,Huixian,Huihui,Claudia,Serene.
Yay,I learnt everybody's names!Which is not an easy feat for me...there's lots of them with chinese names!
All these photos were taken after our Infotech class...Haha,tuesdays are the best as we've only got one class,Infotech in Life Sciences...from 9am-12pm!

literary treasures

2006-05-12T06:46:00.000-07:00

Since young I had this unexplainable love for books.There's juz some things that you can't explain...Maybe its moments of quiet isolation,the feel of the book and the momentary escape from reality into the allcomforting world of words.A book has closure,while yours is still unwritten.Some may argue,how about fate?Fate is yours to make,you will not reach your purpose until you muster up the energy to pick up the pen,and make one.
I've been so busy since school reopened!Everyday its either work or CCA after school...occasionally I'll have a day free from activities..But when that happens,its usually time to catch up on afew much needed ZZzs....Sadly,I haven't gotten the time to go shopping and read!Two of my much loved activities..And I realised I've been buying books and never getting to read them!And its such a pity as I love books!(juz love the book sales KING'S bookstore has...sells super cheap books from like $1-$9).Everytime I see a KING'S booksale,I'm compelled to go there...and most of the time I'll end up buying a book.I get a rush of excitement and happy contentment whenever I look through the piles of books...very similiar to when I'm looking through a store filled with earrings...and clothes!
List of unread books...
Love's Labour's Lost-William Shakespeare
Safari:I won't cry,Mumma-Janet Seath with Frank Scaysbrook.
The works of George Herbert-The Wordsworth Poetry Library.
The Merciful Women-Federico Andahazi
Tomorrow You Die-Reona Petterson Joly
On the anvil-Max Lucado
A love worth giving-Max Lucado
man,I'm a complusive buyer in books...note to self:I shall NOT buy more books until I finish reading these(no matter HOW cheap it is being sold)

My life thus far...

2006-05-08T20:50:00.000-07:00

Ahh,new beginnings!Guess I've pretty much settled in NP's biomedical,1M06.I've got a really nice bunch of classmates...

BeeSim,Serene,Vanessa,Shenhas,Aisyah,Amalina,Huihui,Lifeng,HuiXian,Claudia,Weiting,

Eileen,Changyuan,MingJian,Rees,Shuan and Guanhou...

The lectures,practicals and tutorials have been fairly managable...Although,there are areas in Organic and Biological Chemistry that I don't quite understand.Today we did caffeine extraction from tea!It was cool!But haha,alittle scary coz we used this chemical...dichloromethane(or something like that) and its said to be...*gasp*cancer causing?!

Haha,there's a nasty little flu bug going around in our class.Vanessa passed it to Beesim,who passed it to me and Shuan.And I think I passed it to Changyuan.Goodness knows who esle in our class is sick.Yesterday I was having such a bad cough and sore throat that I couldn't even speak!In the end,I couldn't go to work...was in really bad shape.I went to see the doctor,and was prescribed some antibotics and cough medicine..Turns out I had an throat infection,which caused a fever due to the flammation in my throat(darn,that always happens).Thankfully,I was able to go to school today(thanks for all who prayed for me!)...absolutely refused to miss school as Mondays are filled with important lectures and organic chem practical.I didn't go for Ninjado tonight though...coz I felt it was better I stay at home and rest some more.Haha,my voice is currently one octave lower due to the throat infection...quote Joel,"today dawn's voice very sexy".Haha,maybe if the voice belonged to a guy...But on a girl?Seriously does not sound good.

Ahhh,projects coming in...starting to feel abit stressed....

Ninjado's fun...especially when I don't have the discipline to exercise by myself,and poly does not have PE(only sports and wellness,which for us,will be next semester).Its good coz the physical training allows me to push myself...even though I strongly detest running.Its good coz I get to physically condition myself..as well as retain my flexibility through the stretching they do during the warm up and cool down times.Which was,my initial goal...I wanted to join magnum but decided not to as the training was veryyy....timeconsuming.

Everything's going supposedly to plan...everything's 'supposedly' rosey.Everytime I pass by the Ngee Ann bus stop,I never fail to remember that it was by grace that I am where I am today.But am I living the way that He wants me to be?I don't know if my pursuit for selfhappiness and fufillment is pulling me away from the more important things that I should be interested in..and the purpose of my life.Why did I feel this emotional and spiritual conflict within me?Why do I feel awkward at times?God knows I was just like that before...Is my life as a living testimony enough?Is my lifestyle now pleasing to God?

LSCT orientation camp photos

2006-05-03T20:50:00.000-07:00

Taken on our last day of camp...There are actually other pictures of us arranged in a V,R and D formation.Which spells out VARDA!

Check out our swanky ties!

Haha,a closeup of our mascot...Mahathir looks like the statue of liberty doesn't he?

Our group photo with Mahathir dressed as our life-sized group mascot..

Muacks!Haha...Varda,the queen of the stars!We were the only group of all the gods and monsters that had a female name..

Our orientation camp group,Varda!Cheeeez!haha...I love you guyssss!!!!

Mass chicken dance!Lol,the LSCT commitee had a strange affection for the chicken dance...But its quite fun to do it all together...haha...

Oh gross,GROSS!What will the camp be without...dirty and messy games?This was taken after our very last messy,dirty and wet games...ARGH,to look at the picture makes me cringe.I felt sooo uncomfortable with the mixture of mud,butter,chilli sauce and goodness wad esle!And it was raining and windy..it was so cold!But haha,we bonded through the camp..=)Maxine looks the cleanest as she didn't play all of the games...allergic to soil.

Lol,love wacko...its fun!The expression on Joel's face is super funny...

The afternoon games...we were juz beginning to play wacko..

Our wonderful GLs of Varda...Lye Huat and Gracia!There were others too...Ben Wong,JinJie and Shupei coordinating the camp.But these 2 were the closest to us!And not to mention our dear fake freshies,Edmond and Mahathir..who pretended to be freshmen in our group when in actual fact were already graduates of Ngee Ann. LSCT rocks!Haha,its the most enthu of all schools in NP as we were one of the very few(or maybe the only one) who actually had an overnight orientation camp...while the others were day camps.This pic was taken during a game we played..which involved picking up scrabble letters from a huge tub filled with foam,bee tai mak and all sorts of food items(ewws!).The object was to pick up enough letters to make out the phrase "LSCT FOC".

16 blocks

2006-04-30T00:05:00.000-07:00

Imagine you're driving a car...and it only has space for one more person..

As you stopped by a bus stop...you see 3 people...

1 is an old lady,suffering from some life threatening ailment,about to die any moment and needs to be rushed to the hospital asap...

the 2nd one,is your bestest friend in the whole world!He/she has been there for you all your life,and once,even saved your life...He/she needs to get to some place soon,if he/she waits for the bus..He/she wouldn't be able to make it on time.Whereas,by hitching a lift from you...he/she'll get there on time!

The last one,is the girl/guy of your dreams...sitting at the bus stop,all alone...

Who will you choose to give a ride to?If you only have space for ONE person?

The dying old lady,your best friend...or the girl/guy of your dreams?

What are your piorities?

Haha,no..I'm not trying to be philosophical...this was a question one of the actors asked during the movie,16 blocks.Went to Plaza Singapura last night with BeeSim,Jeremiah and his classmate,Davin.Beesim and I were initially thinking of checking out the astronomy cca in NP...it looks so interesting!But jeremiah was so set on watching a movie,and everybody didn't want to watch...so we decided to come along.Which,I late found out that the astronomy club went to EAST COAST!Wahhh...I felt super sad that I bailed out on the trip!But nevertheless...16 blocks so nice,its an intense movie...

Anywayz...The answer the guy gave to the question?

Get my best friend to drive the old lady to the hospital...before driving himself to his destination.While you get off your car,and accompany the girl/guy at the bus stop....

looking back

2006-04-26T15:28:00.000-07:00

This was the photo of the campfire during our longest day in Sec4.The words in the middle is supposed to be MG05...to some extent I find it abit morbid...as in,the MG05 burning up in smoke.Haha,as if it was an ominous warning to our upcoming Olevel results.BUT,that foreboding was only a fragment of my imagination...as the class of 2005 did well as a level!As I look at the picture,a wave of mixed emotions came about.The Class of 2005,the campfire represented a closure to our chapter in MGS.The flames would also represent the passion and beauty in our varied personalities...

The other pic was taken by Liwen...she purposefully made it grey,I personally love this pic!Its outside the school compounds...The path which we walked on so often...How I miss the times!Although my 10years in MG has its great times and bad...After 10years,as much as you dislike to,you can't help feeling sentimental...

This 2 particular pictures closes a chapter in my life...and its time to start a new one.I'm a NP student now...(I'll be uploading my LSCT orientation camp pics soon!)and its time to make new memories!

As for CCA in NP...I'm joining....Ninjado!Haha,its interesting..and so far I'm happy with it.=)

LSCT orientation camp!!!

2006-04-19T21:17:00.000-07:00

Freshies oy!Haha,juz woke up from my 2hour nap(recuperation!) after the LSCT camp...Wow,its really been a very special 3 days.It marks my beginning of a new chapter of my life...Gracia,LyeHuat,Mathathir,Edmond..etc...you guys were really great GLs and *coughcough*"freshies.Hahaha!Also met lots of great new friends...
Suffered together:Rolling in leftovers,transporting muddy water with wadeva we had(shirts,hair,mouth..etc argh),being smeared in PLANTA butter,standing freezing and soaking wet when its raining....and the NIGHT WALK!Ahhhh....
Danced together:During our group item,Hansel and I paired up to dance...and the mass LSCT 'clubbing' in the sports hall in unearthly hours in the morning...lol,never knew how well life science students could dance...
Ate together:Ticktock,ticktock we must eat...3 meals a day cannot miss!Eat already very fit..everybody eat!Varda eat!(varda,the queen of the stars...and our group name)
Scraping out the insides of the watermelon with our bare hands and stuffing our selves with BITTERGOURD during the games.Transporting and nibbling on the giant pocky stick in the 'giant pocky stick game'.
Murdered pple(nag,juz kidding):Our murder game kakis...playing murder till 4pm in the morning.

Sang,shouted,screamed:

"superman,man,man.

spiderman!

spiderman,man,man.

Batman!

Who are,who are we?

We are,we are somebody.

Can't you see?Can't you hear?

We are........

5,6,7,8

LIFE SCIENCE!!!

"S-O-L-I-D,solid is wad we are!

S-U-P-E-R,super is wad we are!

solid,solid..clap,clap!

super,super...clap,clap!

Solid super...clap,clap!

Super solid..clap,clap!

Geegerlata,solid,solid!

Geegerlata,super,super!

Woooooo....VARDA!

"We were sailing along...

On moonlight bay...

We could hear the voices sing...

They seemed to say..

You have stolen my heart..

Now don;t go away..

As we sing old love sweet songs on moonlight bay..

Moonlight bay....

lalala...

2006-04-07T20:22:00.000-07:00

Went shopping with Meredith,Charis and Rachel yesterday!Since Sheer Romance(Far East) was having this "Buy 1 get the second one at half price" promotion....Meredith agreed to get the second one with me!We both bought tankinis...Mine's a halter top which is brown with white hawaiian flowers,and dark brown shorts bottom.Meredith's is more tube-like,and blue with green flowers.Original price:$42.90,after spliting the price...$36.Ok,I know its not much of a difference...But I figured that hey,tankinis are cheaper than a one piece suit...and at the same time,if I were to grow anymore(although I highly doubt so)..I would still be able to fit into the tankini,unlike my altogether too small former one piece suit.And since it's on a sale...Hey,why not?I was really happy,as I was looking around for a long time for a swimsuit...But couldn't find anything within my budget..all of them are so expensive!!And I was so afraid I'd have to blow over $50 juz for a item of clothing for swimming.Charis bought a top from Puthure London(hmm,I think) and a pair of gorgeous gold pump heels.Rachel bought 2 pairs of shoes!One bronze-ish coloured pair and another white flat pumps.I never noticed how many shops selling shoes FarEast had!Although I'd need new shoes...I'm not really keen on wearing my 'penangplace' smelling sneakers(eww,its time I wash them) to poly everyday.But I think I'd better save up money for my school allowance in poly first...no way I'd go on a growling tummy for the sake of new shoes...haha.I really enjoyed this outing...Coz I haven't really went out shopping(only window shopping=)) since I left MG.And I kinda missed that lifestyle lolz...But nopez,I won't be a mindless spendthrift as,phew...money's hard to earn!*note to self-spend only on wad I need!I will not buy unnecessary items!!>_<
When I met up with Ashley,Kenneth and Abraham for dinner after that at dover(we had a facilitator's meeting).
Kenneth said in astonishment,"bikini?You got a bikini??!!"
Me:*patiently*"Nono,its a tankini..."(and proceeded explaining why I decided on a tankini over a onepiece..CHEAPER and more MODEST than a bikini)
Abby:"But you don't wear halters!"
Me:"Its a swimsuit,they're like that..Besides,I like it!"
Oh goodness me,my style of dressing..its changing!...Which is good,but feels weird...>_<

A walk down memory lane...

2006-04-05T12:40:00.000-07:00

Just read through my archives...Wow,my sec 4 year had really been some year.I revisited the emotions accompanied in the entries.Good or bad,they are all a part of me...and man,I miss MGS to some extent.The usual lessons,goofing around,assignments,teachers,wonderful lit lessons...and the mugging sessions in KAP!!Lol,so decided to post up some of the photos taken during some of the moments of my last year in MGS...Going from left to right,top to bottom...
Pic 1:Hmm,actually I can't remember which Heritage tour was this..But this was after the tour,and we took photos in our classroom..Me,Daphne,Angelina(Angie!) and Charis.
Pic 2:One of the many mugging sessions Charis and I had in the good old KAP.We were there before the renovation,during the renovation(haha,to me,it only spurred me on to study harder) and after the renovation.Yes,we experienced the transformation of KAP!And it looks fabulour now..nice,yellow and cosy.Very McCafe.Once in a while,we'll get so saturated in information that we had to take trips down to the Cold Storage below and take a walk.Either that OR...haha,relive our childhood memories with Macdonald's,Birdie,Hambuglar,Fry guys and the others.
Pic 3:Bababadaba,I'm lovin' it!Lol,told ya I really spent alot of time in Macs studying...a typical day would consist of me going to Macs at about 6.30am,glueing my butt to the cushy seats with my books and a cup of coffee/tea.I would stay there studying till it was time for me to go for my exam.Ahh,Olevels..How I mugged!Oh,this is a photo of the toy given out in one Happy Meal.Come on!After mugging for at least 5hours straight or more with the stupid chicken little's "numa numa" song playing every 3 minutes...DONT I DESERVE A HAPPY MEAL??!!=p
Pic 4:Our class made a welcome back banner for our beloved form teacher,Ms Tan...when she disappeared for afew weeks due to some unfortunate illness.Man,Mr Yeo must have been jealous..lol,you're a wonderful co-form teacher too Mr Yeo!With your subtle humour and dedication to the fantastic world of Mathematics!
Pic 5:May and I in the bus,on the way to submitting our OLEVEL COURSEWORK!Sense the happiness and fatigue?Many of us slogged the whole night through to get our project done on time for submittion.May did fashion designing while I did book illustration.
Pic6:Hahaha,laugh all you want!I acted as Shylock..all thanks to scratchy grey wool from Spotlight,makeup and the very essential black eyebrow pencil...They succeeded in making me look like a man!
Pic7:Vivian,me and Deborah during Inkwell!,a school event in attempt to raise funds of a new school library and to spark off interest in the world of literature.Ahh!Deb,your flower is blocking my face!Haha,Deb and I put up a skit(since we were in LDDs,it was complusory for us to be involved) based on the characters in Shakesphere's Merchant of Venice..Portia and Shylock!
Pic8:Our dear 4B1 class!Doesn't everyone look gorgeous?I especially like LeeMey's deep magenta coloured floorlength tube dress...Its so beautiful and makes her look juz like a princess!
Pic9:Its tradition that the year's sec 4s will go for the Founder's Day dinner..on the 25th of July,and incidentally...my birthday!So I spent my 16th birthday in Shangri-la.Hmm...not bad!Haha..Oh,that's a pic of Tongsi and I in the lobby of the hotel
Pic10:Rachel and I during the dinner.Cool background eh?Nice lighting.Rachel was my Pri1 classmate...and we've known each other for 10years now.So nice to take a photo with her,10years later when we're Sec4..
Pic11:Vivian,Tongsi and I.(founder's day dinner)

Pool at BTP

2006-04-05T00:25:00.000-07:00

Today(or rather last night) Abraham,Kenneth,Junming,Lester,Andrew and I went to play pool in Bukit timah plaza!It was supposed to be a PCG outing,but not everyone could make it(Woeixi,Ashley,Diana..etc.)....and we were initally intending to go iceskating,but due to Abby's violent objections..."I'm not going to pay money to fall down and get my fingers sliced off!",I decided to cut him some slack.He wanted to play dota(ok,I can't spell the computer game that he is oh so crazy about)...and I wanted to iceskate.So we compromised...Pool.Which incidently required hand-eye coordination that I simply do not possess.I felt intensely stupid at times,but hey...I tried and had a good laugh about it!Junming's good at the game..or rather,he got alot of lucky shots.
Ahh,the lovely red coloured ball!My favorite colour and coincidentally the ball I manage to hit in most often...=)
Abby,next time we're going iceskating...

People

2006-03-31T02:21:00.000-08:00

For those who know me,will know I have this inane fear of large crowds.Its unexplainable,and I dunno why!That's why you'd never see me in Orchard during peak hours...and ultimately I try to avoid the Orchard area at all cost.And if I were to go there...it'll be when everybody's in school!Haha,the simple luxuries go awaiting entry to poly.The rest of the world(Primary,Secondary and JC students) are all tucked in their respective classrooms..That's the time I'd venture into the excessively trodden grounds of Orchard Road.I love it.Its empty!No people rushing to and fro,no avid teenage shopaholics scrambling around sales in shops.No queues to the changing rooms!As I was on the bus this morning to Orchard(was gonna meet Hippo there)..my mind started to wander during the 35(thereabout) minute journey.I people-watched!And it was really fascinating to think how each individual has their own personality and character,their own sense of dressing,their own life story.Each has experienced individual joys and pains,major life lessons that could be captured in a book.I earnestly beileve everyone has their own story to tell,full of lifechanging moments and turning points.What's even more amazing is when I was reminded of the verse in the book of Jeremiah,"For I know the plans I have for you.Plans to prosper and not to harm you.Plans to give you a hope...".God has our individual life stories all craved out specially for us even as we were slowly formed in our mother's womb(from simple cells to a complex organism..).And just to imagine each person sitting on the 162 bus from 10.25am-11am had their own individual life stories was interesting...What more the whole world?Its without doubt that God has a such creativity and brillance to hand-craft each of us...its unimaginable and unfathomable.The little details in your life that makes it surprising shows how God is extremely detailed despite the staggering number of people he has made,or intends to make.

Since I was early(as usual)..went window shopping at Wisma Atria for awhile.Forever21has this beautiful white knee-length skirt for $58!Its fabulous..with an uneven cut and slightly pleated that leaves a bohemian feel to the skirt.Wads more,its got a beaded leather strapped belt attached to it...The kind which I used to wear!Its a simple yet exquisite skirt and I really like it..But its oh so out of my price range!I'll wait for afew weeks...if its juz a passing fancy,the feeling will wear out sooner or later.But if it doesn't....I'll crimp and save.I do have enoguh in my POSB to pay for it...But usually,I don't spend that much on skirts...hmm..
Puthure(I got the feeling I spelt it wrongly) London's got a crazy sale!Items from $100+ dropping to $39!Found this beautifully artistic skirt that looks uncannily like the one I drew on my "punkish goth puppet-like girl" in my Olevel art exam.Its nice...the price wasn't that bad either,considering the drop in the price.But the fabric was too heavy,thick velvet.So oh well....
Hippo and I watched the movie,Failure to Launch!Haha,its a good comedy...^_^Definately worth the $7,$8.50 would still be worth it actually...After many bad or mediocre comedies...this one makes the cut!

40DoP life nuggets

2006-03-29T00:28:00.000-08:00

its the painful experiences,that God uses to prepare you for ministry.God never wastes a hurt!Everything happens for a reason,and God is sovereign over it all!Your greatest ministry may most likely come out of your greatest hurt.Who better to minister to a parent of a Down sydrome child than one whose child is afflicted in the same way?Who better to help an alcoholic recover than a person who has gone though the similar problems,fought the demons and gained freedom?Who could better comfort a wife whose husband has left for an affair than a woman who has gone through the agony herself?A hurting individual who has been betrayed and estranged by a trusted friend to be comforted by one who's gone through the same?A person suffering from eating disorders encouraged by another who has conquered her own personal monsters?
God intentionally allows you to go through painful experiences to equip you for ministry to others.The bible says,"He comforts us in times of troubles so that we can comfort others.When others are troubled,we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given to us".If you want to be used by God,you must understand this powerful truth:The very experiences that you resent or regret in life are the experiences God wants to use to help others.They are your ministry!

The Atkins diet:Fat or fiction?

2006-03-27T14:00:00.000-08:00

Just watched a documentary on the Atkins diet on Discovery Channel...and it leaves me extremely disturbed.The Atkins diet,many celebrities have tried and tested it.They've experienced dramatic weightlose...and in turn,skyrocketed the Atkins diet to be one of the most successful amd popular diet.The diet works by cutting out carbohydrates(samples like rice,bread and potatoes).When the body is deprived from its usual form of energy fuel...it turns to our body's stored fat as an energy source.Thus,in the name of Atkins,you can now enjoy all your formerly considered 'sinful' foods like,cheese,meat and other high fat foods.Gone are the days when nibbling on salads were the only way to lose weight.Wonderful isn't it?Because of the wide range of permitted food,and being able to eat as much as you want...Chances are that this is a diet that many will take up and actually STICK to it.In one week,you can actually lose 4kg or more...It is argued that a low carbohydrate diet is more natural for the human body because grains in the form of wheat and rice only became a regular part of our diet 10,000 years ago so our bodies have not had time to evolve to cope with them satisfactorily.Research also indicates that people with type 2 diabetes have better insulin function and blood sugar control on a low carbohydrate diet. However...The metabolic processes involved in using fat for energy instead of carbohydrates can lead to increased uric acid and ketones which can cause kidney problems, gout and headaches.The low amount of fibre in the Atkins Diet actually leads to constipation and chronic bowel disease.Eating high amounts of fat also can have a bad effect on cholesterol levels and can lead to cardiac disease.
The liver produces a digestive juice called bile.The bile acids breaks down the large globs of fat into smaller fat molecules.It is then digested by enzymes from the pancreas and the lining of the intestine.As for the proteins,an enzyme in the juice of the stomach starts the digestion of swallowed protein. Further digestion of the protein is completed in the small intestine. Here, several enzymes from the pancreatic juice and the lining of the intestine carry out the breakdown of huge protein molecules into small molecules called amino acids. These small molecules can be absorbed from the hollow of the small intestine into the blood and then be carried to all parts of the body to build the walls and other parts of cells.But eating a high fat and protein diet,the liver is actually being overworked to produce bile,to break down the overload of fats we happily put into our bodies.Excess amino acids are brought to the liver,where their amino groups are removed and converted to urea.The deamination of proteins produces urea,which is a constituent of urine.The kidney is the excretory organ that removes the urea in the form of urine.Taking a protein-rich diet will result in more urea being produced,and present in the urine.Sometimes,even sugar would appear in a normal person's urine after an especially high intake.When you have a diet consisting mainly on fat and protein,the liver and kidneys will have to work excessively to convert and remove the extra waste products.This may lead to problems in the area,and sometimes cause liver and kidney failure.
I'm standing at 154cm,with a weight of 43kg(which is about 95pounds).I have a waistline of 23inches and 30inches on the hips.I've accepted that I'd most likely never reach the average height of 160cm.I don't need the losing of weight...But I do need slimming down.I've got huge thighs and muscular upper arms(wahh,sad case...especially when I'm female!?).I've got chunky calves(inherited from my footballer of a dad) and generous butt(I could do with some selfishness..lol).And yes,majority of the parts of my body I'm extremely dissatisfied with.No doubt I've grappled with several eating disorders...But I've learnt that there's only so much you can change your body.Furthermore,changing things about yourself doesn't make you happier and satisfied...It just makes you crave for more.Attempting to slim down by programming your body to use mainly protein and fat is unnatural and unhealthy.A woman was interviewed during the show,and she said that although she's lost so much weight...She isn't satisfied as she's lost it in an unnatural way.Throughout the video journal she's recorded during the diet,she constantly feels nauseous and sluggish.And yes,the Atkin's diet does make you feel fuller and not as hungry...But its because you'd feel sickened at the sight of fat and protein laddened food items!
I guess the ideal way to lose the weight and slim down is to eat in moderation,cutting down on the carbs,fat and proteins but not abstaining completely from it.Exercise and have a healthy lifestyle.NEVER,EVER skip breakfast as it'll low down your metalbolism rate and in turn make you gain instead of lose.Have breakfast like a king,eat like a prince during lunch and dine like a pauper during dinner.Drink lots of water and add spices into your meals!Chilli and spices actually speed up the metabolism rate and contain a chemical that 'burns fat'.The process is slow,but at least its healthier...

BBQ

2006-03-27T09:08:00.000-08:00

It was Deb's 20th Birthday on Sunday!Happy Birthday Debz!From left to right:Rachel,Leonard,Me,Charis,Meredeith,Hippo.Darn,I look super small in the photo...haha,I'll keep in mind not to stand next to Charis next time..Haha.=)Nah,just joking..

Fabulous!

2006-03-24T17:00:00.000-08:00

Ahha,last Saturday Deborah,Ria and I met up in Orchard!I couldn't meet them at the original time we planned,which was 11am..coz had to run some errands for my poly enrolment.So I rushed down at 1.30pm..and we took,neoprints!Haha,guess we're getting alittle too old of neoprints...But lol,its fun to take it with friends.Since none of us were very experienced in the art of neoprint taking...Ria and I were randomly using the stylus pen to decorate the photos,shrieking when the whole photo suddenly became PINK(oh the horror!An overdosage of pink!) and the timer which showed the minutes given to decorate the neoprints was closing in to 0 seconds.None of us read the japanese words...so oh well.In the end,after wildly selecting option after option we stumbled upon the eraser thing..So yeps,we removed the offending pink sheen on our picture.Not that I dislike pink...I think its a really sweet colour,juz not too much.Thereafter Ria had to leave...so Deb and I walked around Orchard.And we realised that both of us were equally clueness in navigating around Orchard.Haha,although I've walked the streets of Orchard many times...simply juz can't remember the different places.But nah,we didn't get lost.We walked to Takashimaya,Deborah wanted to get her SamuraiX comic book...And we went to the shop Hushhush!I've looked in there before...But the clothes weren't excatly nice and wasn't really reasonably priced either,so didn't get anything at that time.But on Saturday when Deb and I walked in...they were haveing a 70% SALE,STOREWIDE!Even better,the shop wasn't really packed with people!I hate crowds...probably why I usually aviod Orchard.The lines to the fitting rooms were really long though...But that's ok,wasn't really interested in the clothes anyway.I was tempted to try on the pair of dark blue,straight-cut jeans(with the 70% off,it'll only cost a mere $24..for JEANS!!) though...But was discouraged by the long queue to the fitting rooms.Lol,consoled myself by thinking,"I've already got a nice pair of Levi's...so why do I need another pair?I don't have two pairs of legs..." and "Bootcuts look better on me anyway".Lol,detecting sour grapes?Maybe...
Besides clothes...they also had bags and accessories!Cute little handphone charms and hair clips and scrunchies...As I went to the bag section and I FOUND MY DREAM BAG.Well,almost my dream bag...I've been looking for such a design for a very long time.Its brown with leather trimmings,and a rather edgey looking leather strap.It could do with some rinestones and designs on the strap...But other than that,it was perfect.And with the sale...it costs only $24.90,instead of the usual 80 something bucks.I would say its a good buy,won't you?I had the similar high that day as of when I bought a Bedazzled necklace for $9.90 and when I opened the box to view the initial price=$56.80.Just love retail therapy.

My abba Father's image

2006-03-22T11:30:00.000-08:00

Bitterness,a thick blanket that smothers and suffocates the user.It darkens your world,dims your sight and sours your outlook.A woman describes bitterness as a poison to inject into yourself..and hope the other person dies in the process during the Oprah Winfrey Show.Whether its a gaping hole in your heart left from long ago,or a fresh wound...We've all experienced it.Or perhaps its been mended long ago...
When the fire of anger blazes allconsumingly,and thick,black smoke engulfs you in bitterenss and resent...you're left with a decision.You can either put the fire out...or heat it up.You could even do nothing and let the fire burn on its own.Resentment is a deliberate decision to nurse the offense until it becomes a black,furry,growling grudge.It eats you up inside while you maliciously lap it up,reliving the pain.its spiritually fatal...it shrivels the soul.
It happened to me last time...Bitterness and hurt simmered deep within my soul.It clouded my thinking and muffled my spiritual ears.I couldn't see the silver lining of the cloud(wad silver lining?)...All I could feel was the aching pain in my heart.It left me spiritually and emotional numb.After many months,I arrived ragged and exhuasted at the throne of Jesus.I was emotionally drained..and He took me in His arms and whispered,"Let it go my child,you don't have to carry these burdens anymore...".That was when I experienced the love of our Abba Father,and it taught me to love others...unconditionally.

"Whoso sheddeth man's blood, by man shall his blood be shed: for in the image of God made he man." -Genesis 9:6(KJV)

Now,whenever I think of the one whose hurt me...I don't see a face of maliciousness.Or a face to be resented.We've all been made in God's image.And you know what I see?I see the face of my Father.I see a person who's dearly loved by the same God that loves me.Its no longer a face of the one who broke my heart...But the face of the One who forgave me.The eyes are not eyes of spite,but eyes of the King who wept as I suffered.Its the face of my Father who gave me the grace when no one else gave me the chance.And its because of Him,that I'm truly set...free.

What a friend we have in Jesus!

2006-03-21T15:45:00.000-08:00

What a Friend we have in Jesus, all our sins and griefs to bear!

What a privilege to carry everything to God in prayer!

O what peace we often forfeit, O what needless pain we bear,

All because we do not carry everything to God in prayer.

Have we trials and temptations?Is there trouble anywhere?

We should never be discouraged; take it to the Lord in prayer.

Can we find a friend so faithful who will all our sorrows share?

Jesus knows our every weakness; take it to the Lord in prayer.

Are we weak and heavy laden, cumbered with a load of care?

Precious Savior, still our refuge, take it to the Lord in prayer.

Do your friends despise, forsake you? Take it to the Lord in prayer!

In His arms He'll take and shield you; you will find a solace there.

I've always been particularly fond of this comforting hymn.When trials and obstacles come its way..Its human nature to depend on oneself and others.Like a dog with extra thick fur desperately paddling,attempting to keep its head above the water.Only to completely ignore the wooden raft floating beside it...How many of turn to God first in our times of trouble?

Baptism

2006-03-21T11:30:00.000-08:00

Well,I've been thinking about it for quite awhile...and I've decided that its time for me to be baptised.Its a symbol of my acceptance of the price that Jesus paid on the cross for me..and its an act of my commitment to God.Its not I that lives,but Christ that lives in me!

The greatest love of all

2006-03-21T11:04:00.000-08:00

Here I am humbled by your Majesty

Covered by your grace so free

Here I am, knowing I'm a sinful man

Covered by the blood of the Lamb

Now I've found the greatest love of all is mine

Since you laid down your life

The greatest sacrifice

Majesty, Majesty

Your grace has found me just as I am

Empty handed, but alive in your hands

Majesty, Majesty

Forever I am changed by your love

In the presence of your Majesty

Here I am humbled by the love that you give

Forgiven so that I can forgive

Here I stand, knowing that I'm your desire

Sanctified by glory and fire

Now I've found the greatest love of all is mine

Since you laid down your life

The greatest sacrifice

-Delirious

Perfect strangers

2006-03-17T15:20:00.000-08:00

Abraham aka Abby actually composed and recorded a song!Its entitled perfect strangers...It sounds really nice!Ok,some of the lyrics are rather cliche and dramatic...But the tune is really nice.Wahh,so impressed...actually,I guess I'm impressed with anyone who can write songs,coz its something I'm unable to do.As much as I love music,I'm juz not musically inclined...Thus,I only stick with poems.=)
Apparently Abby has been writing quite afew songs already...just that this one he actually got 2 of his school friends to sing and record it.(lol,in one of the toilets of PJC...since it was the quietest place they could find..)
Well done Abraham!Looking forward to hearing more of your songs!=D

The Bandit of Fear

2006-03-13T14:36:00.000-08:00

He was a professional thief.He had terrorized the Wells Fargo stage line for 13 years,he spooks the most rugged frontiersmen.During his reign of terror between 1875 to 1883,he robbed with firing a single shot.He didn't need to...His strongest weapon was his reputation.His ammunition,was the art of intimidaation.He immediately struck fear in the hearts of men that they surrendered their treasures without a fight.A hood hid his face,and no victim ever saw him.The mere sight of this terrible bandit paralyzed the locals in fear.The Black Bart.
Similarly,he's very much like another thief.One which is has a much more common place in our lives.You've definately met him,and felt the slight leathery brush of his hand against your arm.You've felt his cold breath down your neck whenever you sensed someone following you.Sometimes,when you awake suddenly from your slumber...you feel his lingering presence in the midst of the room.You know him,he's left your palms sweaty and feeling jittery as you went for an important job interview.He doubles as a con man,convincing you to swap your integrity for popularity.He sometimes convinced you to exchange a wonderful,long-lasting gift...for one temporary and second-rate.He's the Black Bart of your soul.Ironically,he doesn't want your money,diamonds or car...He goes for something that is far more precious,your joy and peace of mind.His name?Fear.Mode of operation?To manipulate you with the exciting and mysterious,to taunt you with the unknown.The fear of death,dear of failure,fear of rejection,fear of tomorrow...His choices are boundless.His goal of creating cowardly,joyless souls.
A legend from India tells about a tiny mouse who was terrified of cats.It met a magician and the magician agreed to transform the mouse into a cat.The mouse was happy,until it met a dog...Trembling in fear,it raced to the magician and begged to be changed into a dog.It was contented until this 'dog' met a tiger.Once again,the magician agreed to change it into a tiger.Thinking that being a 'tiger',it was invincible...the 'tiger'went on its merry way and met a...hunter.It ran to the magician again and demanded to be transformed into a human.The bemused magician then refused to and instead,changed the 'tiger' back into a mouse again.The enraged mouse demanded an explaination in its high,squeaky voice.The magician then replyed,"I made you a mouse again,for although you had a body of a tiger...you still had a heart of a mouse.".How many people have this huge,formidable exterior,only to be trembling inside with fears and insecurities?We attack our anxieties and fears with a force of a tiger,but with a heart of a mouse.
Joseph Stalin was perceived as fearless,for he had power.But this notorious Russian dictator was afraid to fo to bed.He had seven bedrooms with high security.He would sleep in a different room to avoid being assassinated.Power did not remove his fears,it made him a paranoid and terribly disturbed man.
The late billionaire Howard Hughes had all the money and possessions he could dream of.But it led to his distrust in people,and obsessive paranoia of germs that caused him to live a life as a recluse hermit.He died a lonely death.No,possessions did not conquer fear.
There are many other examples,sad cases of people trying to fill voids in life with power or material possessions...But it never solves anything.

The extra-ordinary

2006-03-12T13:33:00.000-08:00

God is able to change Moses' rod into a snake...then back into a rod.
The same rod used to divide the waters of the Red Sea.
The same rod used to guide two million people through the desert.
David,a simple shepherd boy with no military training.
Challenged Goliath with five stones and a leather sling.
Goliath jeered and sniggered.
The philistines laughed.
David swung the sling and the stone hit the giant.
Right in the middle of the forehead.
The giant tumbled to the ground.
Saliva and mud,a simple balm.
Jesus used to heal the blind.
The mundane becomes majestic.
While the theologians were sleeping..
And the elite were dreaming..
and the successful were snoring,
the meek were kneeling.
Kneeling before the One,
kneeling before Jesus Christ.
its not the ability,but the availabilty.
Blessed are meek,
for they shall inherit the earth.

The prison of pride

2006-03-10T12:00:00.000-08:00

A prison of pride,we all have it.Self-made men and women determined to pull themselves up even though they fall flat on their rear ends.You've seen the prisoners,an alcoholic who refuses to admit his drinking problems.A woman who refuses to talk to anyone about her fears.You've seen the businessman who adamantly rejects help,when even his dreams are falling apart.
''Blessed are those who mourn..for they will be comforted''.To mourn for your sins is a natural outflow of poverty of spirit.However,many deny their weaknesses.Many know they are wrong,yet pretend they are right.Some don't even know that they're wrong.As a results,they never taste the exquisite sorrow of repentance.Of all the paths to joy,this one has to be the strangest.True blessedness,Jesus says,begins with deep sadness.Blessed are those who know that they are in trouble,and have the sense to admit it.When the disciples were frantically rowing in the sea during the storm,they were frightened out of their wits.With huge waves crashing against the side of the boat...They didn't know if they were going to make it out of the storm alive.Out of the midst of the storm,they saw a lone figure...Walking on water!!Peter,instead of dismissing the strange sight as a fragment of imagination of a fatigued mind...called out,''Lord,if its You...tell me to come to You on water.''.He steps out and walks to Jesus,but after afew steps...forgets the One who is able to support Him and looks down into the wind-tossed waves.Instantly,he plunges into the churning waters..but is immeadiately saves by Jesus.Peter was able to lay down his pride and call out to Jesus,and later step out into the water to follow Jesus.The breaking down of the prison walls,and letting God take over.When you mourn,in repentance of your sins...when you admit that you have no other option but to cast all your cares on him,and when there is truly no other name that you can call...Cast all your cares on Him,for he is waiting in the midst of the storm.

Blushing pears!

2006-03-08T20:53:00.000-08:00

This morning as I searched in the refrigerator,SURPRISE!Apparently my mom bought a pack of pears!Pleased by this rare event,I happily reached for a pear...The best time to eat fruits is in the morning!And to my amusement,the other side of the pear was tinted such a pretty shade of rose pink!Amusement then turned to suspicion...Pink pears?What izit that pigments the pears pink?Izit safe to eat?Izit EVEN pears?Looks more like a overly large jambo fruit.Its too small to be a pear...The fruit was easily cupped in my hand,measuring about 6cm(while a regular sized pear will be well,bigger).It looked so cute and perfect that it might as well be a waxed fruit display..Its really super cute!I know my mom once put a candle into the freezer...By some miraculous reason she mistook it for a piece of candy..so yeps.But surely she couldn't do that again!Flipping over the plastic lid of the package..I read...

''Blush Pears''

''Produced in South Africa''

That explains the pinkish hue on the pears.Its unusualness increased the novelty of the pears...They're really very cute!Oh...and how did it taste?Pretty much the same as the regular pears,just slightly sweeter and harder than the norm...(the pink font is self-explanatory eh?)

The abstract and the nonsensical

2006-03-08T10:33:00.000-08:00

During our dinner break at Penang Place...we were talking about the different artists and their paintings...
Me:Gibson's style of decorating is of Picasso's(ok,sorry...I know I spelt his name wrongly.anyway,I should explain that at the restuarant's noodle station...being caught up in an air of bo-liaoness,we often resort to arranging the egg,fishcake and prawns into beautiful patterns.)
Nic:Maybe his mind is juz like that famous artist...Vincent Mango,abit eccentric one...
Me:Its Vincent Van Gogh...and he was artistic,he poured his soul out into his paintings!but people didn't understand him!
Gibson:*grins*My art is abstract!Its too good for people to understand!Even my art teacher didn't understand my art...Haiz...
Me:....
Gibson:(getting crappier)Really!I know alot about art!For example,have you heard of the artist Blahblahboo?
Me:????
Nic:(playing along)Hey,ya!I heard of him too!What paintings did this er...what's his name do?
Gibson:Its Blahblahboo...and he did(scanning around the restuarant for inspiration)...THE PERFECT TREE!
Nic:Ya!!!I remember now...and the...(his eyes fall on the lobak dish),ONLY LOBAK!!
Gibson:See?(turning to me)...Nic knows what am I talking about!
~The others and I were practically doubling over with laughter at that point...
Nic:Of coz!!That artist...can't remember his name lah,was a very good artist!I knew him personally!
Gibson:Huh?really ah?I think he lived in the 1600s you know?
Nic:Oh of coz!I'm Stalin!Number 1 dictator in penang place!This artist,of coz I know!
Gibson:Wahh...
Nic:But I think arh...The best painting he has ever done is the...LAST PAPAYA!!
*Lolz...a very 'penang place based artist...don't you think?Oh well...Hmm,as I look back..I seem to have typed in alot of singlish words.I don't usually use singlish in my blog entries...But I'd juz leave the piece as it is...To capture the essence and authenticity of Mr...Blahblahboo...=)

God's perfect plan

2006-03-05T22:40:00.000-08:00

Hey God!I wanna thank You once again for letting me get into Biomedical in poly!I know that You have a great future in stored for me,no doubt also filled with trials..But hey,its all placed there for a reason...I've been reading the 40days of purpose book becoz of the campaign that my church has embarked on.And I hope that Vivian,Liwen,Gary,Bize,Joel and myself...as well as more to come,will have an enriching time!As I was reading...there was this poem that particularly struck my attention...

You are who you are for a reason.

You're part of an intricate plan.

You're a precious and perfect unique design,

Called God's special woman or man.

You look like you look for a reaon.

Our God made no mistake.

He knit you together within the womb,

You're just what he wanted to make.

The parents you had were the ones he chose,

And no matter how you may feel,

They were custom-designed with God's plan in mind,

And they bear the Master's seal.

No,that trauma you faced was not easy.

And God wept that it hurt you so;

But it was allowed to shape your heart

So that into His likeness you'd grow.

You are who you are for a reason,

You've been formed by the Master's rod.

You are who you are,beloved,

Because there is a God!

Its unusual to think the many nights that my heart wrestled with useless passionate anger and profuse bleeding(figuratively,of coz)...that God was actually weeping tears of sorrow along side me.You were just like a loving parent,watching Your child go through his/her own heartaches and yet,unable to stop it...as You knew that it was to let us grow stronger,and more like You.I'll never fully understand my You picked me to under go such a painful spiritual growth journey last year,but right now...I do see changes in my heart.I initially thought that the incidence would have left me void of love and care..and I must admit,at first it did.But it has actually increased my love and empathy for others,regardless of whomever.You know and seen what has happened Lord...Whatever Your plans are...You know how my heart empathizes and ironically aches towards that fellow beilever.Whomever it is,nobody should be made to feel such anguish and distress that I(and I'm sure others before me) felt.Despite of what has happened,*** shouldn't have been made to feel such things..I don't know why my heart goes out to her,after what *** similarly did to me..But I juz do.But hey,cruel as it is...perhaps that's what You do to get people to become more and more like You.Know I see that apparently,it has strengthened my walk with You and in the process,I've let go abit of my human nature.Honestly,I feel rather bewildered...How?How izit possible to not feel a spiteful satisfaction,or even a tinge of smug-ness?Is that the aspect of my human nature that You intended to erase?Yes Lord,You have a purpose for me...and You've planned it in a way that I cannot fathom or foresee.The feeling of wanting to feel smug and yet unable to is an emotion that I'd never think I'll want to feel,so very unredundant and unexpected.Your work is not done with me yet...I know that well,all of us still have this ''under the progess of construction'' on us.You'd never stop working on us..and I thank You for that.Isn't it ironical?And many people have often said what creative God You are...Ooh,we have no idea what You have in stored in our lives...

Mind matters

2006-03-03T10:42:00.000-08:00

The longest living cells in the body are brain cells which can live an entire lifetime.
The human brain is 80% water
The brain uses more than 25% of the oxygen used by the human body.
~Now,wouldn't you agree that after so much it consumes...A mind is a terrible thing to waste?

Posting results...

2006-03-03T10:21:00.000-08:00

I went to the Ministry of Education website to check out which course I've been posted to...As I keyed in my NRIC number and clicked enter...

Name :
SEOW BOON KUAN DAWN
1.
The results of your application are as follows:

Posted Institution
NGEE ANN POLYTECHNIC

Course Name
BIOMEDICAL SCIENCE/BIOMEDICAL LABORATORY TECH

Course Code
N59

2.
If you are posted to a JC/MI, please report to the JC/MI on 6 Mar 2006 at 7.30am. If you are posted to a Polytechnic/ITE, an enrolment package with the relevant enrolment details will be sent to you.
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Coolz,I got my 1st choice...juz like what the course counsellors said.How ironic,even though I'm naturally a more Arts inclined person...I'm vying for a place in the scientific world.Perhaps its becoz I know that the Biotechnology area is far more lucrative than the humanities related areas...Also partially becoz I have an ardent passion for Biology,and that as human nature,we tend to strive for things we don't have.
The transit from the arts to the science is something I considered similar to the re-coding of DNA.It is shown that your abilities and inclinations are partially encoded into your DNA.However,God did not create me to be unable to reach for new heights..Everybody's given both the right and left side of the brain(which,one side cultivates the artistic side and the other,the logical and scientific thinking),and everybody's given the same amount of brain cells.We all have it installed within us...and we juz need to cultivate it.God did not create anyone to be inferior or less complex than the other,we all created in His image and He loves us dearly.Do you think a Creator who loves us so much would want to create us inferior to another?Thus,with the help of God...I am able to reach new heights.I am able to switch from an 'artist' to a 'scientist'.
~Please note that my phase "recoding of DNA'' does not mean I approve of gene therapy and cloning...Its a totally different thing=D

As for the rest of my peers going to poly...Rachel Chiam and Weixin's going NP!!Yay,I've got more pple!Angie's appealing for a course in NYP...and Hahhaa,Gibson got into a course in TP!Lol,the funny thing is...He lives in Toa Payoh!He's gonna appeal to go to SP...Lol,super funny lor,that guy..Hmm,haven't asked the rest yet..

Christianity-floating thoughts...

2006-03-02T12:30:00.000-08:00

Its not a religion,its a relationship.Just by going to church and doing your daily quiet time doesn't make you a christian,it just makes you a beilever.Christ,means the annointed One.Being a Christian means to live a life holy and pleasing to God,and having a relationship with Him..
=Its not a religion,its a relationship=

God,what are You thinking?

2006-02-28T11:30:00.000-08:00

To:God
From:Dawn(and yes,you know which one)
C.C:-not necessary as every email/prayer reachs directly to God-

Hey again God!Wellz,our church is finally embarking on the 40days of purpose campaign..and I thank You for the fairly smooth orientation Sunday.I have faith that this 40 days of spiritual journey will be a stretching and yet,enriching time for all of us.I thank You for watching over Timothy during his time in the army..May You carry him Oh Lord,even as he goes through the time of physical training.I thank You that Rae and Mag has finished their exams...Haha,and I want to thank You for letting Hippo go through his exams too...Yay,Hippo's coming back to work!
As for me,izit really possible for me to block out fridays and now,saturdays?I'll be spending my entire weekend in church...Which,hey..I have no problems in.I enjoy dwelling in Your house,Lord.But it'll mean major sacrifices for me...I'll have to give up my friday and saturday night shifts.Furthermore,the poly term is starting soon...and I need all the money I can get!I don't get work slots that often,or rather...as often as I would want to...and that's why I've got to seize every opportunity I have.I know that many a times,I would compromise my commitment of going to friday's prayer meetings with a simple phone call asking me to work on Friday nights.Does it hurt You when I do that,God?When with a innocent phone call,I'm willing to forgo my initial plans to go for prayer meeting?Although the number of youths attending prayer meetings have increased considerably,majority till do not go for the meetings.Perhaps their piorities are different,but does that give me an excuse to skip?No,I don't think so.You're my Jehovah Jireh...and You've already said in Your Word,that You will provide all my needs.Your grace is sufficent for me.
Let not the pursuits of the world stray me away from what You want me to be,and what is right and wrong.I've learnt previously that there are no perfect christians around in this imperfect world.We all fall...Some get caught up in the vicious rat race that they'll do anything to get ahead.Hide me in Your wings,Lord...And let me not be too overly concerned of what others think.Let me take the path that You've pointed out for me..and not to look back by what others say.For its better to plunge into darkness holding Your hand,then walk in a lit path with the approval of men.I WILL complete my degree and masters(if I decide to) sooner than the norm...and I WILL succeed in life becoz I'm holding the hand of God.Let me run the race You've set for me in spirit and in truth!

american idol

2006-02-24T12:40:00.000-08:00

This season's american idol has really good talent!In the previous seasons,I'll immediately be able to pick out my favorites after afew shows...But in this one,everybody's so good!Especially the girls...I think all 12 have their own special personality and vocal style.But my favorites for the girls are Kellie Pickler and Ayla Brown.Ayla Brown's got a nice soulful voice...and Kellie Pickler's got such a sweet and likeable personality.Its juz too bad I missed the show when all 12 girls sang...coz I was working.But when I watched the girls' review during the guys'...I was amazed by how great all the girls sound.As for the guys,I like David Radford aka "the crooner"...Hmm,or at least I think he's the crooner one.Will Makar's good too..and Kevin Covais is so adorably cute!haha...But my favorite male contestant in this season is Chris Daughtry...I always liked rock and his vocal style is really great.Plus,he doesn't sport the typical long and unruly hairstyle that is so very common amongst rockers..Which I really dislike,coz its untidy and not to mention,long hair juz looks weird on most guys.
Americian Idol juz keeps getting better and better.....

As told by me...

*bounces around*

fugly.

MIEOW!

I'm tired..Argh.

Disgusting stuff.BLEH!!!

kboxing

Ninjado chalet

Ah-CHOO!!!

Laugh Out Loud.

Haze

Smile like you mean it

why.

Gahhh!

Rome!

The best use of space.

Turn it up and dance!

Comedy and a very clogged up nose.

:)

Father to daughter.

Outrageousness and Otak

Class chalet at Downtown East!

memories

Results are out!

Another one bites the dust

ERS camp

*sobs*

Musings

Ninjado!

Sunscreen-Baz Luhrmann

Just a closer walk with Thee.

Teacher's Day

Aching...

Randomised.

Exams...bah!

concrete angel-Martina McBride

Agape cup

OOoh,choir photos!

Chem joke!

*drools*

Let's sing it!

blindness

Smile!

Human Nature,its weird.

one by one

organic chem

Biobrain challenge pics!

Happy 17th to ME!

The Rose-Bette Midler

Sumairu Shopping!

sulphuric acid and stupidity

rambling thoughts

untitled

metamorphasis

Forwarded email

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DIANA!

untitled

whee!more photos!

She's the man!

Camp photos!

oh wow

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baptism pics

Choking over a big slice of life

Shopping at PS!

spats of bimboti-ism

Class photos

literary treasures

My life thus far...

LSCT orientation camp photos

16 blocks

looking back

LSCT orientation camp!!!

lalala...

A walk down memory lane...

Pool at BTP

People

40DoP life nuggets

The Atkins diet:Fat or fiction?

BBQ

bounces around

sobs

drools